Jun 11, 2005 23:31
wow....tonight was just amazing.
i came back from anne's house today.....walk in my house...."SUPRISE!"
yea they threw me a suprise party. it was really nice.you guys are amazing, thank you so much for everything. i dont know what i would do if i lost any of you.
tonight, as it got later and later, and the stars became more and more apparent....i relized that i really really don't want to grow up. im not scared of it, i just dont want to. i was reminded tonight of my childhood...so many things tonight just brought it all back. and im not ready to leave that all behind me.
let me explain how things were tonight...
the stars were out...a fire burning, and the smell covered my whole back yard...the lightning bugs flew around just out of my reach...country music was playing...and i was having real conversations with my friends. on the hammock...laying in the grass........it was just so nice. you guys don't understand, what you did tongiht, thats how i grew up. that is my life. and i love it...all of it. im not ready to leave that behind. what i did tonight, i hadnt done in years...and thanks to you guys, i got to do it again...only, this time, i was old enough to see how amazing it truly is.
im not growing up. i refuse to let nights like these become a thing of the past. it cant happen. these are the nights i never want to end. every girl in highschool has her "dream night"...like prom, or homecomming, or a date with "that guy"...no, those things are nice, but they will never amount to tongiht.
i will find a way to not grow up...cuz it aint happenin'
thank you all so much.
i love you guys!