I did a quiz
...because as I laid down the full inescapable truth of my life collapsed on me
...and after I cried, I couldn't sleep any longer.
And then I looked at al the questions, and realized how bleak and horrible each answer was, and decided not to subject anyone to that. I miss...being needed. I miss the feel of a woman whose happy to see me, and eager to talk to me. I miss having roomates around me, ready to do almost anything at the drop of a hat. I miss calling friends up at a moment's notice for hijinks or roleplaying. I miss being self confident. I miss knowing I'm smart.
I don't feel like I have any human spirit left. I just feel like I'm alove, and going. Theres no great passion for anything, no great life within me to accomplish anything. I dreamt of great things once, and those dreams have gone away, faded into nothingness. What was it that motivated me? Was it something, Someone? Fame, love, power, money? Whatever it is, it isn't there anymore.
Sometimes we all want to be needed. I, however, 'always' want to be needed; and its becoming brutally obvious to me there's no one left out there who needs me. I've squandered precious relationships, enduring friendships, and family bonds until everything is soured away, and I truly wonder how long they'd cry for me if I stepped into traffic tomorrow.
In the end I'm sad and hollow, useless and alone. But there's just enough human spirit to keep moving; just enough natural instinct not to keel over and give up. And so, life marches on.
...Sorry, you probably didn't want to read that much, either.
(This is going to be my first Myspace post too. Blame Erin that I have one. I figure if there's anyplace that deserves this, its probably MySpace)
...and after I cried, I couldn't sleep any longer.
And then I looked at al the questions, and realized how bleak and horrible each answer was, and decided not to subject anyone to that. I miss...being needed. I miss the feel of a woman whose happy to see me, and eager to talk to me. I miss having roomates around me, ready to do almost anything at the drop of a hat. I miss calling friends up at a moment's notice for hijinks or roleplaying. I miss being self confident. I miss knowing I'm smart.
I don't feel like I have any human spirit left. I just feel like I'm alove, and going. Theres no great passion for anything, no great life within me to accomplish anything. I dreamt of great things once, and those dreams have gone away, faded into nothingness. What was it that motivated me? Was it something, Someone? Fame, love, power, money? Whatever it is, it isn't there anymore.
Sometimes we all want to be needed. I, however, 'always' want to be needed; and its becoming brutally obvious to me there's no one left out there who needs me. I've squandered precious relationships, enduring friendships, and family bonds until everything is soured away, and I truly wonder how long they'd cry for me if I stepped into traffic tomorrow.
In the end I'm sad and hollow, useless and alone. But there's just enough human spirit to keep moving; just enough natural instinct not to keel over and give up. And so, life marches on.
...Sorry, you probably didn't want to read that much, either.
(This is going to be my first Myspace post too. Blame Erin that I have one. I figure if there's anyplace that deserves this, its probably MySpace)