What has really changed this year?
I honestly don't know. Maybe it's the lack of braces, the new hair colour, the natural hair I got going on??? Whatever it is, I've been getting a lot more male attention than I'm used to. And I'm embarassed to say that I have no idea why this is happening or how to respond to it. I guess that the full burst of confidence that comes with the territory isn't really there yet. I'm also a bit scared of the 'world of dating'. Is that strange for an ALMOST 20-year-old to say? Yeah probably. I'm just a late bloomer I guess. Mandla says that I'm just scared of people or males in general. I know that she's exaggerating but there is some truth behind it. Social interaction with acquantances of the male variety can be a bit forced for me and I have no idea why. Maybe I'm just too busy wondering what they are thinking. I really want to come out of my shell but how? I tend to make things a lot more difficult than they have to be...