you know what?!

[schnikes]

I want my fucking piece of me back. You've had it for too long. Let some one else break me down into those little pieces bastards like you take from innocent girls like me. Your not like you anymore. No one is like who they used to be. I hate it when people change. I hated it when you changed. I guess you didnt know how great you were. I know people think you great now. But I don't. I don't think your amazing. I can't bring myself to think highly of you. When I think of you i get this way. All crazy and my emotions don't know how to feel. I've never missed some one as much as I fucking miss you. I'll always want to hold on. Why do I fucking need you? Why do I need your approvel, like its okay that I hold on? Why do I fucking need you so I can keep breathing.
Honestly I don't want to wake up. You get me like this. You know how to get me like this. And its terrible- because I think you know I still miss you. I think you know I'll never let go and I think you know I'll always wake up and strive for perfection just for you. And I'm giving up. How many times have you heard me say that. O yea I'm done with this. What was I fucking thinking. I'm not giving up- I'm giving in and I can't just leave now.
I don't know how to feel. I'm lonely and I feel like there is something wrong. Something wrong with me. I know there is. There has to be.
I'm not good enough.
I'm not pretty enough.
I say it all to much, I know.
But I'm entitled to.
I never love myself and no one has ever loved me. And I realized there is really nothing to love- I'm not loveable. I'm not even likable.
You don't dream of me.
And I care.
Please some one take me away.
just fucking take me away.
Anywhere even if im in a straight jacket
just take me.