Starts with Goodbye
The lyrics to Carrie Underwood's song, "Starts with Goodbye," pretty much explains how I'm feeling at this point in my life... so here are the lyrics...
"Starts With Goodbye"
I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna bring me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
The night goes on, and some things that I'll have,
To give to the other side,
I guess it's gonna bring me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna bring me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
Starts with goodbye,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
Na na na na na na na.
***The reason this is so perfect is because back in November when Jake told me he was moving to Seattle he told me over the phone (hence the first verse..) As soon as I said goodbye I dropped the phone into my pocket and just started crying... luckily Stephanie was with me... and it is going to be very hard without him... seeing as how he has been there for me through everything-- my grandma and grandpa schmiege's deaths, my dad's sicknesses, matt having a baby, anytime i was sad or needed a friend to talk to he was the first one i turned to and he was more than willing to be there for me... i love him.. he is the bestest friend ever and i seriously feel as though a piece of my heart has broken now that my best friend is not near me anymore... the refrain fits the best though... because i am seriously hurting right now... even though you may think i'm overreacting this is seriously the hardest thing i have ever had to do... it's not like he's going away for school... he's there PERMANENTLY... i had to let go of someone i love... i have been crying a lot lately... and i had to say goodbye... and i did this all because i know that jake needs to move on and i know that washington will be good for him... but i'm just gonna miss him soooo much so i'm sad... but things will get better.... hopefully...
But yeah I'm gonna do a lil bit of homework while I wait for Jake to call me since he promised he would call once he gets settled in tonight... his plane just landed about 30-45 minutes ago.. IF it was on time... so yeah i'm hoping he'll call soon so I can get some sleep.
I love my friends!!! Have a wonderful night, everyone!
"Starts With Goodbye"
I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna bring me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
The night goes on, and some things that I'll have,
To give to the other side,
I guess it's gonna bring me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna bring me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
Starts with goodbye,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
Na na na na na na na.
***The reason this is so perfect is because back in November when Jake told me he was moving to Seattle he told me over the phone (hence the first verse..) As soon as I said goodbye I dropped the phone into my pocket and just started crying... luckily Stephanie was with me... and it is going to be very hard without him... seeing as how he has been there for me through everything-- my grandma and grandpa schmiege's deaths, my dad's sicknesses, matt having a baby, anytime i was sad or needed a friend to talk to he was the first one i turned to and he was more than willing to be there for me... i love him.. he is the bestest friend ever and i seriously feel as though a piece of my heart has broken now that my best friend is not near me anymore... the refrain fits the best though... because i am seriously hurting right now... even though you may think i'm overreacting this is seriously the hardest thing i have ever had to do... it's not like he's going away for school... he's there PERMANENTLY... i had to let go of someone i love... i have been crying a lot lately... and i had to say goodbye... and i did this all because i know that jake needs to move on and i know that washington will be good for him... but i'm just gonna miss him soooo much so i'm sad... but things will get better.... hopefully...
But yeah I'm gonna do a lil bit of homework while I wait for Jake to call me since he promised he would call once he gets settled in tonight... his plane just landed about 30-45 minutes ago.. IF it was on time... so yeah i'm hoping he'll call soon so I can get some sleep.
I love my friends!!! Have a wonderful night, everyone!