a shadow in her heart

[schmerz_pain]

i am hiding in the shadow of her heart or
rather his
i know this and it pains me so
we have a physical connection a strong one but
but do we have a strong emotional one
could you ever really fall in love
could we ever really be in love at the same time
i know you need time
but now i'm reconsidering
i think i need more time than i ever thought
before
i am petrified
to live in a shadow
and i won't do it no longer
how can i
its all but a shadow
in her loving and caring heart
but your love is different in comparrison to mine
i never truly healed
i'm still broken
and still i try
i love the more than
you could know now
but i don't want to be that shadow
i want to be in love with you
and you in love with me
you say love grows in time
i believe that when you love someone you know
and it grows stronger minute by minute
day by day
month by month
i want that chance
and i hope and now pray to get it
maybe i'll understand more
maybe i need to realize better
maybe
i just don't want to be
a shadow in her heart