my insecurity travels in waves of low frequency but high amplitude.
ohhh man. i woke up the other day and stretched my legs out and my right calf just seized up and it hurt like hell for a full minute or two. it's been sore ever since, i'm walking with a limp. this stuff never happened to me when i was younger. i'm getting old, i'm falling apart, MY SKIN IS COMING OFF. probably i just need to get more exercise. i went jogging last week and my shins have hurt ever since, fuck you high school track. i'd ride captain but my car has been in the shop for something like a month now. i'm just so busy these days.
i decided yesterday to get a tattoo of the sun, right below my belly button. i sketched one on and really like the way it looks. then as i was cleaning out my room i found that old magazine clipping of zoey from SSX tricky, with the spiky heart around her belly button, and remembered how much i wanted that one. well damn, i can't get them both. feck.
okay so i thought about going back and deleting all my old entries where i bitched out my sister but i've decided, fuck it. i wasn't fond of her back then but there's no point in denying it and also i'm lazy. if anything it's significant seeing how far i've come. i had some serious jealousy issues but i guess now that my mother has stopped ignoring my existence and instead is desperate for my acceptance things have changed. also i've realized that emwat is one cool chick.
i decided yesterday to get a tattoo of the sun, right below my belly button. i sketched one on and really like the way it looks. then as i was cleaning out my room i found that old magazine clipping of zoey from SSX tricky, with the spiky heart around her belly button, and remembered how much i wanted that one. well damn, i can't get them both. feck.
okay so i thought about going back and deleting all my old entries where i bitched out my sister but i've decided, fuck it. i wasn't fond of her back then but there's no point in denying it and also i'm lazy. if anything it's significant seeing how far i've come. i had some serious jealousy issues but i guess now that my mother has stopped ignoring my existence and instead is desperate for my acceptance things have changed. also i've realized that emwat is one cool chick.