What lies between
I am painfully awake right now. I guess painful is the wrong word. But. second night running and I just can't get tired. I havn't had any caffiene since 8:00 am this morning...when I accidently insfused my beautiful, pure, green tea with a ton of lipton BRISK lemonade. yea. It was kind of zesty tasting. Anyway. updates, updates. Just got done writing some mighty fine rhetoric for my history debate tomorrow...chances are I wont get to read it because I think everyone in my group wrote one...worst-idea-everrrrrr: Hey, instead of making one person sort-of-suffer...let's make eveyrone!! yayY!! mutual suffering!! No one wins. I actually enjoyed writing mine though...because I am awake enough to do it.
Anyway. The next day. is wednesday. no Thursday! Then friday. and road trip. away. from here. far. not so very far as to feel lost or permanent, but far enough. It will be fun. star gazing on the beach? yes please. Too bad hayley isnt a man, because if she was this weekend would have the makings of some pretty good romance. But its better this way, romance muddles things up. This summer for example, I couldn't focus on being away from society/the glorious wilderness because I was too busy playing silly games with boys. Well. hm. That is not to say I regret how I spent my time in Idaho. I believe could have had a very differnt experience but I'm not sure it would have been MORE fulfilling persay. It would just have had my life a slighly differnt shape...like a heptagon rather than an octagon. somthing like that.
Anyway. Good things are on the way, to ME for once. They are coming to me! And they take the form of Robert and Jared. A couple of my favorite guys coming home. Robert really is a stellar brother. I wish I could somehow be as helpful to him as he incessently is to me. But what do I have to offer? Not much. I guess I make him laugh but it seems a sorry exchange of goods. Jared? well who knows what he'll be like now-a-days. I hope he still wants to be buds. But. if he doesn't well. I've survived this long without him I guess I can do it indefinetly. Cold hearted? no. just fearful. You put up armor when you're afraid. Blah.
Moving on. I like track. ALOT. It is so right. I like the people I like king richard I like TO RUN. It is making me very happy and fit. Perhaps this all just in contrast to crew which constantly made me feel like shit on an incredible variety of levels including but not limited to: social, physical, weight-all, mental. BLAH. I hated the competetion and having to be around such fake bitch-ass people like. well. you-know. And getting asked: "did you make light weight? did you, did you??" Die bitch. I hate regattas. I hate being cold for pro-longed periods of time, I hate intensive lactic acid, I hate the ridiculous amount of pomp that goes into that sport. I hate getting home at 7:30, I hate erging (ie stationary hell). but. I love Will Putnam. what a funny kid. We had a nice chat today. about one of his freshmen friends. Who MY FRIEND is enamored of.. yeah my friend goes for the younger guys. what a perv.
Anyway. this is really long. I'm still not tired. Vermont keeps getting snow. Maryland gets snow one day and is 70 degrees the next. What the hell is happening? I don't know. My buddy from VT wants to come out and ski WA/BC next winter...but there's no point if it keeps up like this for another year. Might as well stay in the east.
There has been a Peru Revival. It is wonderful. Emails circulating, passing on the love. I really do love you all. with the exception of one of you who makes me cringe everytime I see you. Zach you are a darling for sending that letter out, its justs what we all needed after B.O.A.T sunk....like a small peruvian titanic. aye dios mio. Ok. I guess I should try to sleep? I should try.
If you are hormone crazy and you know it, clap your hands!
*clap clap*
Megan i know you best be clappin.
-Claud is out.