So it's been a while but i'm in need of some major venting
So I only have about 2 weeks until finals and I'm soooooo frustrated and angry.
It seems like no matter how much work I do for something, I always have more, or I've forgotten something, or I can't just plain concentrate.
I feel like I've had a bad semester. I know you're not supposed to get straight A's in college or whatever but I just feel like I didn't put in enough effort. Which is sad considering how much it costs to actually go to BW I should be putting every ounce of energy into school and studying...
It doesn't help that I don't have the discipline to make myself stay up late to get work done. There's just nothing that I can do to make myself stay up past midnight. Not coffee, not working out, and obviously no due date helps me to stay up. The funny thing is that once I do try and go to sleep I don't stay asleep, I keep waking up for no reason but yet I still don't have the will power to just wake up and do something!!!
I'm pretty much the scum of the earth right now. I keep worrying about when I go home and then I'll see my final grades and seing my parents faces being more than disappointed. Yea there's no really bad grades like a D or an F, but there's a good possibility that if I can't pull it all together that I could have as many as 3 C's at the end of the semester. That's if I totally cop out, but right now that's all I really want to do.
It helped when I went home because I talked to Cory and he's sooo motivated about what he wants to do and all he knows and what he wants to know and it just makes me want to do well for myself. I want to be that determined and that focused, but it really just seems like I can't do that here.
Sometimes I just feel like this school isn't the right fit for me. I feel like I wish it was, but somewhere deep down I think that BW isn't the school for me. I don't know..maybe it's just the stress talking, but if nothing changes and next semester goes just as awful, then I think I might transfer somewhere else.
Please just get me through the next 3 weeks....
later cats.
It seems like no matter how much work I do for something, I always have more, or I've forgotten something, or I can't just plain concentrate.
I feel like I've had a bad semester. I know you're not supposed to get straight A's in college or whatever but I just feel like I didn't put in enough effort. Which is sad considering how much it costs to actually go to BW I should be putting every ounce of energy into school and studying...
It doesn't help that I don't have the discipline to make myself stay up late to get work done. There's just nothing that I can do to make myself stay up past midnight. Not coffee, not working out, and obviously no due date helps me to stay up. The funny thing is that once I do try and go to sleep I don't stay asleep, I keep waking up for no reason but yet I still don't have the will power to just wake up and do something!!!
I'm pretty much the scum of the earth right now. I keep worrying about when I go home and then I'll see my final grades and seing my parents faces being more than disappointed. Yea there's no really bad grades like a D or an F, but there's a good possibility that if I can't pull it all together that I could have as many as 3 C's at the end of the semester. That's if I totally cop out, but right now that's all I really want to do.
It helped when I went home because I talked to Cory and he's sooo motivated about what he wants to do and all he knows and what he wants to know and it just makes me want to do well for myself. I want to be that determined and that focused, but it really just seems like I can't do that here.
Sometimes I just feel like this school isn't the right fit for me. I feel like I wish it was, but somewhere deep down I think that BW isn't the school for me. I don't know..maybe it's just the stress talking, but if nothing changes and next semester goes just as awful, then I think I might transfer somewhere else.
Please just get me through the next 3 weeks....
later cats.