Paperthin Hymn
Sometimes I get really fucking tired of waiting for stuff to happen. And people expect me to just sit there and wait for them. Like it's my job or something.
I'm not getting paid for it. It's not going to happen.
For instance, Erik. He expects me to be there when he'd like to talk to me, or goof off, but feels he can drop me at a moments notice to go hang out with some other chick, who will remain nameless because we were really close at one point. Then when I get upset with him, he doesn't notice. And I can't keep myself upset with him because it's Erik, damnit.
Then Scott. He's only done it once, but it was right after some other shit so it really grated on my nerves. It was one of those, "Oh. I have to go find someone, but if I can't find them I'll be back. Wait here." Yeah. Right. So I blew him off and left. Of course I left to go cry, but I think I was in my rights to do so. I'm just tired of being choice number 2.
So yeah. This has been festering for a while, and I needed to get it out. I know no one will really care, simply because that's my role in nearly every relationship I've been in, with anyone. Doesn't matter if it's a friendship or an actual RELATIONSHIP, which are few and far between. But I'm really getting sick of it.
Yeah. Hah hah. Funny shit. Let's stop now.
I'm not getting paid for it. It's not going to happen.
For instance, Erik. He expects me to be there when he'd like to talk to me, or goof off, but feels he can drop me at a moments notice to go hang out with some other chick, who will remain nameless because we were really close at one point. Then when I get upset with him, he doesn't notice. And I can't keep myself upset with him because it's Erik, damnit.
Then Scott. He's only done it once, but it was right after some other shit so it really grated on my nerves. It was one of those, "Oh. I have to go find someone, but if I can't find them I'll be back. Wait here." Yeah. Right. So I blew him off and left. Of course I left to go cry, but I think I was in my rights to do so. I'm just tired of being choice number 2.
So yeah. This has been festering for a while, and I needed to get it out. I know no one will really care, simply because that's my role in nearly every relationship I've been in, with anyone. Doesn't matter if it's a friendship or an actual RELATIONSHIP, which are few and far between. But I'm really getting sick of it.
Yeah. Hah hah. Funny shit. Let's stop now.