and hello
So I don't even know if people still post here. Livejournal in the day was the exclusive place, limited amount of accounts, better GUI etc. Facebook and Myspace have taken over.
I really don't participate in the social networking as much as I should, especially considering the work I have done in the dance field to promote the potential of these sites as media to engage audiences.
I am writing tonight because I am struck at the time (9:52PM ET) and find myself at home instead of going downtown to party for a two different birthdays. I feel incredibly disconnected from my friends who I once related to so well. I don't know if it's the case as much anymore, but I sincerely hope. hope. yearn? I miss the people that this platform once represented.
NYC isn't that difficult to manage, but it does consume a lot of time. I feel like my time has been focused so much on making my life balance out. I understand that this is a common post-graduate problem; however, I feel that I've really failed in making or having time to keep in touch with friends.
It makes me question, or really realize the meaning of, "friends forever." Is this true? Sometimes hope and wishes don't make anything reality and then you realize that you're only human.
Living in Queens is slightly a problem because although I love my home and neighborhood "atmosphere," there is a very limited number of people I know or can relate to in my community. Say I take up soccer or want to get involved in partying (again bringing me back to tonight), then maybe I'd know more.
I just am not interested in partaking in this consumer society that encourages drunkedness (although fun) in order to feed the never-dying nightlife economy. I can't afford this if I want to ever buy a place of my own (and not be dependent on other's equity-building businesses) or if I ever want to have a family. It's all just too much money. NYC is my home, and it needs to be for now. I just wish I didn't have to spend $15-$20 and be cheap just to hang out with friends and have a good time.
It just seems wrong, and I've never been good at charity. It's getting to a point where I feel critically disconnected and saddened that I've seemed to sacrifice some really great friendships for a career and feeling of "going somewhere." Really relationships are what matter to me alongside feeling genuinely connected to the world. I believe my expression is through dance. In the US, NYC is the place to be. If I had a means to Brussels, I'd go; maybe I'd be able to live more decently there and "hang out."
If only my apartment had a living room and not my room as the living room...
I'd love to hear from anyone if they're still out there on this site.
Take care.
I really don't participate in the social networking as much as I should, especially considering the work I have done in the dance field to promote the potential of these sites as media to engage audiences.
I am writing tonight because I am struck at the time (9:52PM ET) and find myself at home instead of going downtown to party for a two different birthdays. I feel incredibly disconnected from my friends who I once related to so well. I don't know if it's the case as much anymore, but I sincerely hope. hope. yearn? I miss the people that this platform once represented.
NYC isn't that difficult to manage, but it does consume a lot of time. I feel like my time has been focused so much on making my life balance out. I understand that this is a common post-graduate problem; however, I feel that I've really failed in making or having time to keep in touch with friends.
It makes me question, or really realize the meaning of, "friends forever." Is this true? Sometimes hope and wishes don't make anything reality and then you realize that you're only human.
Living in Queens is slightly a problem because although I love my home and neighborhood "atmosphere," there is a very limited number of people I know or can relate to in my community. Say I take up soccer or want to get involved in partying (again bringing me back to tonight), then maybe I'd know more.
I just am not interested in partaking in this consumer society that encourages drunkedness (although fun) in order to feed the never-dying nightlife economy. I can't afford this if I want to ever buy a place of my own (and not be dependent on other's equity-building businesses) or if I ever want to have a family. It's all just too much money. NYC is my home, and it needs to be for now. I just wish I didn't have to spend $15-$20 and be cheap just to hang out with friends and have a good time.
It just seems wrong, and I've never been good at charity. It's getting to a point where I feel critically disconnected and saddened that I've seemed to sacrifice some really great friendships for a career and feeling of "going somewhere." Really relationships are what matter to me alongside feeling genuinely connected to the world. I believe my expression is through dance. In the US, NYC is the place to be. If I had a means to Brussels, I'd go; maybe I'd be able to live more decently there and "hang out."
If only my apartment had a living room and not my room as the living room...
I'd love to hear from anyone if they're still out there on this site.
Take care.