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In a room full of people that I know? It's a very odd feeling. I want to just go home, but at the same time I want to be a part of the conversation. Just want to be a part of a different group, I guess?
I am limited in what I can talk about with them. I don't watch too much TV or movies and I don't have cable to even partake in many of the TV shows that they talk about. Trueblood, It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, etc. and I really don't think I would be interested in them if I did get to see them regularly. Nothing against those that like them, just not my thing.
Then I am thinking that I am going to be hitting a milestone this year and want to really do something nice to celebrate... but what? I would like to have a nice dinner like at the Moshulu - or maybe something casual that more would be able to partake in. And I really don't want to end up planning my own party... Guess I have always wanted one of those awesome planned surprise birthday parties that you see in TV shows or on movies that are all types of lavish and fantastic. Although I cannot expect people to be available for this or to be able to afford it; it is expensive for something like that after all.
Then there is work. *ugh* It is a serious mental drain on this woman. I don't know how I can explain it to most people. I would seem to be some paper-pusher for most. But it is really more like I am a project foreman of a construction site - it is unfortunate that it is for "direct mail" (junk mail to most) instead of a new hospital or a runway. Funny thing is - I had ended up applying and interviewing with the Navy for a very similar job that would have built such things. I suppose that I would have been well suited for it knowing how long I have been doing it for my current employer. *sighs*
I guess I am just not at a very satisfied level of my life right now. It isn't anything that is causing this in particular... but the collective of it all.
C'est la vie, non?
I am limited in what I can talk about with them. I don't watch too much TV or movies and I don't have cable to even partake in many of the TV shows that they talk about. Trueblood, It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, etc. and I really don't think I would be interested in them if I did get to see them regularly. Nothing against those that like them, just not my thing.
Then I am thinking that I am going to be hitting a milestone this year and want to really do something nice to celebrate... but what? I would like to have a nice dinner like at the Moshulu - or maybe something casual that more would be able to partake in. And I really don't want to end up planning my own party... Guess I have always wanted one of those awesome planned surprise birthday parties that you see in TV shows or on movies that are all types of lavish and fantastic. Although I cannot expect people to be available for this or to be able to afford it; it is expensive for something like that after all.
Then there is work. *ugh* It is a serious mental drain on this woman. I don't know how I can explain it to most people. I would seem to be some paper-pusher for most. But it is really more like I am a project foreman of a construction site - it is unfortunate that it is for "direct mail" (junk mail to most) instead of a new hospital or a runway. Funny thing is - I had ended up applying and interviewing with the Navy for a very similar job that would have built such things. I suppose that I would have been well suited for it knowing how long I have been doing it for my current employer. *sighs*
I guess I am just not at a very satisfied level of my life right now. It isn't anything that is causing this in particular... but the collective of it all.
C'est la vie, non?