Post from a while ago that didn't post for reasons unknown.
Church.
I've never felt like a religous person. Trapped by the do's and don'ts, it felt more a social order, a thing to do, a community to belong, than a spiritual journey. My family was heavily involved in the church, and as part of that family, so was I. Freshman year I was on Student Congregation council. But it never was what I was looking for....it didn't help me, but disabled me instead. Too many internal conflicts would not allow anything other than my own mind medal inside me. I have not been involved in a religious institution since college, but for attending Christmas and Easter services, and baptisms as part of my family clan. I'd looked into the Unitarian church, and the day I finally made it out the door to attend, I rear ended someone on Kingshighway. It's a sign, or I didn't care enough, or whatever the reason, I haven't attempted to go back.
Meanwhile, I'm just this side of destitute and barely made March rent and will very shortly have serious trouble with bills. So, stress. I've met with my old friend Jill over a few weeks and we've done yoga just for kicks, and I enjoyed it very much. She let me borrow the DVD for the week.
I've also taken to watching St. Olaf church and chapel services online. I went so far as to print out the daily class schedule, and scheduled myself to play piano and work out and apply for jobs and do yoga, etc...into the class periods. So far, so good. Though I'm finding writing cover letters exceedingly difficult as self promotion is an extremely uncomfortable proposition. That's my task at this point. As Odd Todd would say, I need monay.
indeed.
The chapel services have been heartwarming. St. Olaf's brand of ELCA Lutheran is much different from my parents' church. Maybe because it's Minnesota or an academic setting, but I'm more receptive to Pastor Benso
I've never felt like a religous person. Trapped by the do's and don'ts, it felt more a social order, a thing to do, a community to belong, than a spiritual journey. My family was heavily involved in the church, and as part of that family, so was I. Freshman year I was on Student Congregation council. But it never was what I was looking for....it didn't help me, but disabled me instead. Too many internal conflicts would not allow anything other than my own mind medal inside me. I have not been involved in a religious institution since college, but for attending Christmas and Easter services, and baptisms as part of my family clan. I'd looked into the Unitarian church, and the day I finally made it out the door to attend, I rear ended someone on Kingshighway. It's a sign, or I didn't care enough, or whatever the reason, I haven't attempted to go back.
Meanwhile, I'm just this side of destitute and barely made March rent and will very shortly have serious trouble with bills. So, stress. I've met with my old friend Jill over a few weeks and we've done yoga just for kicks, and I enjoyed it very much. She let me borrow the DVD for the week.
I've also taken to watching St. Olaf church and chapel services online. I went so far as to print out the daily class schedule, and scheduled myself to play piano and work out and apply for jobs and do yoga, etc...into the class periods. So far, so good. Though I'm finding writing cover letters exceedingly difficult as self promotion is an extremely uncomfortable proposition. That's my task at this point. As Odd Todd would say, I need monay.
indeed.
The chapel services have been heartwarming. St. Olaf's brand of ELCA Lutheran is much different from my parents' church. Maybe because it's Minnesota or an academic setting, but I'm more receptive to Pastor Benso