something/nothing

[schalakid]

something's on my mind-
could just be nothing,
most likely is nothing
so I shouldn't think it's something.
If something is nothing
then that's fine,
nothing suits me fine.
and if nothing is something
then i fear i'll drown.
I already am.
I wish i was just pitied enough
to not ever be played with -
as prepared as I seem
I'm already helpless
between the these lands
most likely landing on nothing,
because all there is is nothing,
all we want is nothing...
or so we've said.
nothing, it's all fine
one day I can handle something
someday.
why am i wasting time on nothing
dreams budding from the recesses of my mind
that you are something.
It's so unnatural
i'll regret it if i try
to make nothing something
when it doesn't want to be
and all that time and effort
i'll never get it back
as much fun as it may be
I don't want to resent nothing.
you're more special than nothing.
something's out there for me
I wish you could tell me it's you.