HanChul [One Shot] All there is
Title: [One Shot] All there is
Pairing: HanChul / Henry
Genre: Angst
Rating: G
Word count: 1190 words
Summary: The last time Hankyung saw Heechul. The last time Heechul saw Hankyung.
A/N: This is random shit… inspired by SSII in shanghai… long time since the last update cause i have trying to work hard in school lately. ^^
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He saw everything.
In the noises the world seems quiet, for his eyes are lock on the familiar tongue twirling and playing to the more than familiar rhythm in someone else mouth. Those lips glossy with saliva under the spotlight has once breathed I love you right into his ears, yet those words seems to be as microscopic as speckles of salt now, sprinkled right in the very slit that was tearing open slowly in his heart. The motion of their lips plays in a painstaking speed, each and every milliseconds fill with passion and the taste of lust. It hurts to watch them, yet he just can’t take his eyes off them even for just a moment. Because he wants to blame them for doing this behind his back, when he is away, he wants to blame him, for finding a replacement sooner than he has though he would, but he can’t blame anyone, because they aren’t the ones hiding in the crowd doing it secretly, he is the one hiding.
Sunglasses, hood and cap lowered, he watches them sing dance have fun and eventually kiss on the stage. That is what he came for, to see them, to see him, to see if he is doing well. All that for heaven’s sack are just excuses, because he know he has come for the chance to see him once again and just maybe, just maybe if there is a chance back stage, he will once again reclaim those lips and tell him how sorry sorry sorry and sorry he is.
But now he sees that they were finishing, silvery liquid threading between their lips and the crowd screams and screams in excitement and his heart drowns and drowns with raining salt, pickled and yet numbed to the pain. He sees those huge round eyes narrowed lazily in to a seductive slit, before those lips curled in to a smirk and the tongue cleaned the saliva off the surface.
For a weird weird moment, he thinks those eyes are looking at him, mocking at his total lose and defeat. He turns away from those eyes and squeezes through the crowd because he decides he has seen enough.
Because he thinks he has seen all there are for him to see.
All there is between Heechul and him
***
Right from the very start, he spots him in the crowd, in the black hoodie they brought together before debut.
But then again, tonight Heechul has spotted twenty two different Hankyungs, some standing there like the one with the black hoodie, some dancing ballet in the mid air, some sitting by the side of the stage and yes even some that is right in front of him smiling.
Though whenever Heechul stretches out his hands in synchronize with the lyrics, all there is, is just a fist full of air.
And this isn’t the record, he spotted thirty four Hankyungs in Beijing, seventeen in Taiwan and even chased after one on the streets of Guangzhou that he was certainly sure it was Hankyung, but turned out to be some Chinese fan. The doctor says that the pills will lessen the illusions, but Heechul never believes in doctors to begin with. He has to learn to get use to this in his way.
His way means when he sees Hankyung standing in the crowd, he tries to think it is nothing, tries very hard to bear with it and tries even harder to believe that it will eventually go away,
But it just isn’t easy.
Man In love
U
It’s You
She Wants It
The songs go by.
Every time Heechul turns he will turn back to look at the very same spot. Hankyung has become a pivot, the axis of attention and just like how Hankyung used to show heechul his ballet turns, Heechul thinks he has mastered the skill of Spotting, only that the skill makes him more dizzy then ever. As the world twirls around heechul, the Hankyungs playing on the stage, dancing in the air diminish and disappears, leaving only the one standing in the coward with a black hoodie. Heechul begins to feel unsure of this being a illusion anymore, he begins to feel nauseous, his breath sucked out from his windpipe and he feels like his is fainting soon.
Of course he does not faint on stage, that will bring the petals fainting along with him too.
He endures and endures, until he can’t endure anymore, it is already time for his solo.
Heechul comes up on sitting on the stage lift and sees Hankyung at the same spot again. He feels so real and Heechul thought maybe he is for real this time. Heechul sweeps a finger across his own lips and imagines it is Hankyung’s that he is touching. Then he laughs hysterically because the words he sings fits his situation perfectly like a God made gown.
Crazy.
Finally Heechul has to admit he is going crazy, no he is already crazy. And it’s all because of this man. Suddenly Heechul has this urge to jump of stage and dig Hankyung’s heart out with his sharp nails and see if it has once been his possession, but of course he can’t, because the show must go on. Suddenly Heechul has this urge to rip the lips off the man and kiss the breath out of him, till he will admit that he is deeply sorry for what he has don, but he can’t, or can he?
Heechul spots Henry’s sweat creating sparkles under the hot blinding spotlight and walks over. He careless Henry’s smooth tender skin just once before he can’t wait no more and presses his lips on to the young boy’s, forcing his tongue into the cavity. Henry shivers and retreats backwards, but once he hears the fans screaming , he stops rejecting, because he knows the show must go on.
Heechul toys around with Henry’s tongue while his eyes focus off stage at Hankyung. Heechul enjoys the hurt on Hankyung’s face even if he knows he probably just made all this up in his crazy mind. But who cares, he needs this sense of satisfaction of getting even with the man that abandoned him.
So when Heechul is finally finishes with Henry he smirks at Hankyung and imagines him crumpling right to the floor. Heechul gets what he wants; he watches Hankyung lowers his head defeated totally.
Heechul turns away from the audience smiling in victory.
But the moment he is facing the dark side of the stage, he smile disappears because he can’t shake off the feeling that Hankyung will never pop up in his imagination again. And sure enough when Heechul turns back to the audience again, he can’t even find a single Hankyung anywhere in the crowd.
All of them vanished.
Yet Heechul somehow manages to bring out another smile, an occupational smile for the fans, for SJ and for that the show must go on. And also a smile for he thinks he has no regrets.
He thinks has seen enough has seen all, all there is for him to see.
All there is between Hankyung and him.
***
i didn't even know why i wrote this... but since i finished this in like half an hour... just bear with it XD
Pairing: HanChul / Henry
Genre: Angst
Rating: G
Word count: 1190 words
Summary: The last time Hankyung saw Heechul. The last time Heechul saw Hankyung.
A/N: This is random shit… inspired by SSII in shanghai… long time since the last update cause i have trying to work hard in school lately. ^^
*************************************
He saw everything.
In the noises the world seems quiet, for his eyes are lock on the familiar tongue twirling and playing to the more than familiar rhythm in someone else mouth. Those lips glossy with saliva under the spotlight has once breathed I love you right into his ears, yet those words seems to be as microscopic as speckles of salt now, sprinkled right in the very slit that was tearing open slowly in his heart. The motion of their lips plays in a painstaking speed, each and every milliseconds fill with passion and the taste of lust. It hurts to watch them, yet he just can’t take his eyes off them even for just a moment. Because he wants to blame them for doing this behind his back, when he is away, he wants to blame him, for finding a replacement sooner than he has though he would, but he can’t blame anyone, because they aren’t the ones hiding in the crowd doing it secretly, he is the one hiding.
Sunglasses, hood and cap lowered, he watches them sing dance have fun and eventually kiss on the stage. That is what he came for, to see them, to see him, to see if he is doing well. All that for heaven’s sack are just excuses, because he know he has come for the chance to see him once again and just maybe, just maybe if there is a chance back stage, he will once again reclaim those lips and tell him how sorry sorry sorry and sorry he is.
But now he sees that they were finishing, silvery liquid threading between their lips and the crowd screams and screams in excitement and his heart drowns and drowns with raining salt, pickled and yet numbed to the pain. He sees those huge round eyes narrowed lazily in to a seductive slit, before those lips curled in to a smirk and the tongue cleaned the saliva off the surface.
For a weird weird moment, he thinks those eyes are looking at him, mocking at his total lose and defeat. He turns away from those eyes and squeezes through the crowd because he decides he has seen enough.
Because he thinks he has seen all there are for him to see.
All there is between Heechul and him
***
Right from the very start, he spots him in the crowd, in the black hoodie they brought together before debut.
But then again, tonight Heechul has spotted twenty two different Hankyungs, some standing there like the one with the black hoodie, some dancing ballet in the mid air, some sitting by the side of the stage and yes even some that is right in front of him smiling.
Though whenever Heechul stretches out his hands in synchronize with the lyrics, all there is, is just a fist full of air.
And this isn’t the record, he spotted thirty four Hankyungs in Beijing, seventeen in Taiwan and even chased after one on the streets of Guangzhou that he was certainly sure it was Hankyung, but turned out to be some Chinese fan. The doctor says that the pills will lessen the illusions, but Heechul never believes in doctors to begin with. He has to learn to get use to this in his way.
His way means when he sees Hankyung standing in the crowd, he tries to think it is nothing, tries very hard to bear with it and tries even harder to believe that it will eventually go away,
But it just isn’t easy.
Man In love
U
It’s You
She Wants It
The songs go by.
Every time Heechul turns he will turn back to look at the very same spot. Hankyung has become a pivot, the axis of attention and just like how Hankyung used to show heechul his ballet turns, Heechul thinks he has mastered the skill of Spotting, only that the skill makes him more dizzy then ever. As the world twirls around heechul, the Hankyungs playing on the stage, dancing in the air diminish and disappears, leaving only the one standing in the coward with a black hoodie. Heechul begins to feel unsure of this being a illusion anymore, he begins to feel nauseous, his breath sucked out from his windpipe and he feels like his is fainting soon.
Of course he does not faint on stage, that will bring the petals fainting along with him too.
He endures and endures, until he can’t endure anymore, it is already time for his solo.
Heechul comes up on sitting on the stage lift and sees Hankyung at the same spot again. He feels so real and Heechul thought maybe he is for real this time. Heechul sweeps a finger across his own lips and imagines it is Hankyung’s that he is touching. Then he laughs hysterically because the words he sings fits his situation perfectly like a God made gown.
Crazy.
Finally Heechul has to admit he is going crazy, no he is already crazy. And it’s all because of this man. Suddenly Heechul has this urge to jump of stage and dig Hankyung’s heart out with his sharp nails and see if it has once been his possession, but of course he can’t, because the show must go on. Suddenly Heechul has this urge to rip the lips off the man and kiss the breath out of him, till he will admit that he is deeply sorry for what he has don, but he can’t, or can he?
Heechul spots Henry’s sweat creating sparkles under the hot blinding spotlight and walks over. He careless Henry’s smooth tender skin just once before he can’t wait no more and presses his lips on to the young boy’s, forcing his tongue into the cavity. Henry shivers and retreats backwards, but once he hears the fans screaming , he stops rejecting, because he knows the show must go on.
Heechul toys around with Henry’s tongue while his eyes focus off stage at Hankyung. Heechul enjoys the hurt on Hankyung’s face even if he knows he probably just made all this up in his crazy mind. But who cares, he needs this sense of satisfaction of getting even with the man that abandoned him.
So when Heechul is finally finishes with Henry he smirks at Hankyung and imagines him crumpling right to the floor. Heechul gets what he wants; he watches Hankyung lowers his head defeated totally.
Heechul turns away from the audience smiling in victory.
But the moment he is facing the dark side of the stage, he smile disappears because he can’t shake off the feeling that Hankyung will never pop up in his imagination again. And sure enough when Heechul turns back to the audience again, he can’t even find a single Hankyung anywhere in the crowd.
All of them vanished.
Yet Heechul somehow manages to bring out another smile, an occupational smile for the fans, for SJ and for that the show must go on. And also a smile for he thinks he has no regrets.
He thinks has seen enough has seen all, all there is for him to see.
All there is between Hankyung and him.
***
i didn't even know why i wrote this... but since i finished this in like half an hour... just bear with it XD