To myself, because I'm a lazy, depressed fucking bum...
Its time to stop feeling sorry for myself. Its time I wake up and realize that life is going to go on around me whether I'm depressed or not. Its time I spent some time on me, because lord knows I need it.
I want to go back to school. I need to, have to go back to school. For the sake of all things holy and intelligent, I need more education, because I feel like a fucking cave man sometimes when I try to string words together into sentences. Nothing ever makes sense anymore. My vocabulary has gone down the drain. My thought processes are completely fucked up. Bottom line, school is a top priority, and anyone who knows me at all should know that was really, really hard for me to admit.
I need to save money. No more spending every penny, because I'll just end up back at home in 6 months again. I'm going to pay closer attention, and when I put money in savings, I'm not going to take it all out in a week.
I'm a vegetarian. And that's that. Healthy. If I don't completely stop smoking cigarettes, I'll at least cut down. I'm not gonna stop smoking pot, but that's just cause I don't feel there's anything wrong with it if I do it more responsibly than I used to. Its better than alcohol, that's for sure. I'm going to take care of my body, because I haven't, and now I'm sick all the time and I hate it. Puking every day at least once a day, sometimes more, for 6 days straight is just not fun.
I'm going to make new friends, damnit. I'm going to work my ass off for my mom and Eli, and Jonny's dad, and I'm going to get my own place and pay for it and stop mooching off both my parents. It's just going to have to happen, because I'm tired of being miserable and not doing anything about it.
The end. Good night.
I want to go back to school. I need to, have to go back to school. For the sake of all things holy and intelligent, I need more education, because I feel like a fucking cave man sometimes when I try to string words together into sentences. Nothing ever makes sense anymore. My vocabulary has gone down the drain. My thought processes are completely fucked up. Bottom line, school is a top priority, and anyone who knows me at all should know that was really, really hard for me to admit.
I need to save money. No more spending every penny, because I'll just end up back at home in 6 months again. I'm going to pay closer attention, and when I put money in savings, I'm not going to take it all out in a week.
I'm a vegetarian. And that's that. Healthy. If I don't completely stop smoking cigarettes, I'll at least cut down. I'm not gonna stop smoking pot, but that's just cause I don't feel there's anything wrong with it if I do it more responsibly than I used to. Its better than alcohol, that's for sure. I'm going to take care of my body, because I haven't, and now I'm sick all the time and I hate it. Puking every day at least once a day, sometimes more, for 6 days straight is just not fun.
I'm going to make new friends, damnit. I'm going to work my ass off for my mom and Eli, and Jonny's dad, and I'm going to get my own place and pay for it and stop mooching off both my parents. It's just going to have to happen, because I'm tired of being miserable and not doing anything about it.
The end. Good night.