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So I'm over it I guess. I let it go and gave it up. I sort of just realized that if he really loved me then he wouldnt be with her, and if he gave a shit at all then maybe he'd let me know. But he makes no effort and he's so Nick, so, I mean. Whatever. Feelings have to end sometime so I'll be up for it when they do. As for Matt I really do not care about him at all. I'm done giving my time to people who waste it. I think about Nick more than I ever thought about Matt, It's probably because I have stronger feelings for Nick, but, love is never enough anymore, and thee feelings, well, they arent doing me any good and I'm still alone and single so cheers on that. ... Things happen for reasons, so yeah. I'm done with it and I dont want to go back unless I have any proof that I am wanted, and that it'll work. SO that's probably out forever.


So we're in school in 3rd Period, and we're all talking. And..

[Me] Yeah Bianca's cat is like always pregnant.
[Bianca] haha she gets around I guess
[Mayra] You should masterbate it
[Me] aaaahahahha what the? You mean like castrate?
[Mayra] No, masterbate
[Mr. Pervis] stop saying masterbate. You mean neuter it
[Mayra] NO .. masterbate
[Me] Masterbating is like.. touching the cat in wrong places
[Mr Pervis] It's what guys do
[Mayra] you mean like what Eric does in the bathroom?
[Mr. Pervis] yeah
[Mayra] Ew. Sick.

Oh I swear that girl is so fucking great. That was the best ever.