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[scarsrtracks]

you think it's weird?
what?
I love Mason. Right? Loved. And, I could always say "i love you" to him. All the time, at fist it was weird but whatever.
and?
I cant tell Nick. I mean, I try you know? I work up the courage and then I'll look at him or hear his voice and I lose my balls. I can type it ... I dont know if that's weird or not though

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[skunkseatmice]

Maybe it's because Mason wasnt as close as Nick, and maybe you see Nick more than you see Mason. So you know that you're going to have to be looking at him knowing that he knows that you said it? Or it's just harder to admit because he isnt truely yours like Mason was? I dont know. I guess neither make sense. Maybe you just dont want to say to him because it would make it true. It is true right? Do you really love him? [AND ANSWER THAT]

Eternal Sunshine = probably my favorite movie. It reminded me of you too, because I remember we had this long conversation on erasing people from our memory and all that. And you always said that no matter what shit the person puts you through, you always learn something. And erasing someone, forgetting them, it would only make you dumber. Hah, I always remember the things you say.

[scarsrtracks]

I thought that may be the reason. All of those you said. Maybe it's because he's closer, maybe it's because he isnt mine. Maybe it's because i dont want it to be true. And it is true. With Matt I always doubted whether or not I loved him. i was never ever positve and it always changed. With Mason never once did I take it back. With Nick, I always knew. I havent doubted my feelings for him yet, I do love him, as stupid as that is.

AND YES! I WAS SO TIHNKING THAT! arg. haha. and i LOVED how they still dated even though they knew it wasnt going to end. It was just really cute.

[skunkseatmice]

I know it was true. I could tell when you talked about him on Xmas. It was cool because I was always used to seeing you happy when you were with us, and you seemed really content when you spoke about him. So. <3

ahah yeah I was like "man when lex sees this movie she's going to love it.

OH. SO. Tomorrow we're hanging out <3333333333333 FUCK YES. I'm going to kiss you again.

[scarsrtracks]

haha I liked that
you're like saying "I know you love him. I'm going to makeout with you tomorrow"

ahha <3

[skunkseatmice]

if he can do it why can you? hah <3

[skunkseatmice]

i meant. why CANT you
but that was sort of mean, I apologize.