Bloody Technology!!
Tried to download the client for LJ Talk & the fucking thing said there was a problem with it. Damn Damn Damn!!!!! Never mind, I guess I'll just have to give my closest friends here in LJ Land(the majority of the lovely peeps on my friends list) my MSN Messenger addy. All in good time.
It's not been too bad being at dad's I guess, it could be much worse. Had a rather nice dinner of sausage meat & bacon puff pastry pie with mash, tasted OK really. Well, dad is a highly qualified chef/caiterer(sp?)/baker so I don't expect inedible grub. Infact I expect extremely high quality food from him.
My mood has been highly erratic today, Up-down-up-down-up-down-down. Funny thing is I'm taking my sodding meds responsibly & yet I still get random, extremely intense episodes of suicidal thoughts/feelings. It's bugging the Hell out of me & dad just doesn't understand at all, he tries to, bless him, but he just don't geddit.
Been speaking to a couple of the guys from
borderline on MSN, it's been a huge help as a distraction & I'm slowly getting to know some of the people behind the words of comfort & support in my times of need, which are very very frequent given the fact my loving partner is holed up in a psych unit miles & miles away.
Downloaded a few albums I've been after & they're actually pretty good. I've got the new Bullet For My Valentine album (ScreamAimFire), Serj Tankian's (the guy from System Of A Down) solo effort (Elect The Dead) which coincidentally is the mutts nuts, Linkin Park's album (Reanimation), which I once owned but lost the CD & that's pretty much all I've done so far. Currently in the process of getting hold of a Blue October album I've had my eye on for while (Consent To Treatment).
Missing Sara so much it hurts, & the emotional pain & turmoil just refuses to subside despite my best efforts at trying to ignore it. I really can't wait to see her again in a few weeks time. I'm going to stay with her until around 5 or 6pm & then make my way back home.
Anyways, I'm fucking FREEZING & I need a coffee & a ciggy.