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i went today and it was ok, sufficiently awkward. i told her i'd come back. she has a list of things were gunna work on. she wants me to tell her everything i eat, i don't think thats a good idea. the questoinnaire was probably a bad idea. i don't wanna talk about how sad i am, i just don't i think she'll judge me. we talked about my family issues and i think she understands that part, but talking won't change anything, i don't want a relationship with them. at least she says there's nothing wrong with drinking and smoking a little pot. i lied a little, i couldn't talk about one particular thing. i didn't want to cry in front of a stranger. there's one point i want to talk about but i know i'll sound pathetic and i don't want that. i already am spilling all this private stuff the fact im a stupid pathetic girly person would be too far.