Projects
My head is full of things that need doing. I have an editing project that I hope to finish up today to make room for these other projects. Some of it is just that Things Need to Get Done. Some of it is that I open LJ and Facebook every day and read about everyone else's accomplishments and I feel like I'm doing nothing worth acknowledgement--and that makes me both sad (really sad--what the hell am I doing with myself?) and crazy. Here are some of the things that need doing:
House projects: I recently replaced the disposal unit in my kitchen sink. The old one was Old (leaky, rusting) and needed replacing, even though I've been using the unit less and less since they instituted compost disposal around here. It was remarkably satisfying to get this little bit of maintenance done. Then next house project, then, is the upstairs bathroom. I want to clean it out this weekend in preparation for calling a plumber to deal with the non-functioning toilet. It will be nice to have a second bathroom again--and it's a nice little room. Then comes the big project up there--renovation--but that's for 2013. One flaming hoop at a time.
Writing: Apparently I am something of a writer, but I haven't been feeling much that way the last six months or so. What stories I've put in the mail this last year have been rejected (except the one sent to Greece, and I await its publication with impatience), and the critiques I've received have been making me feel more and more timid about showing my work to anyone. Anyone. I don't know what that's about except feeling outrageously sensitive and unjustifiably insecure. At the same time, I'm acutely aware of everyone around me who writes writing away like Writing Things.
Jewelry-making: A coworker has commissioned me to make jewelry as Christmas gifts for his daughter, sister, and mom. I've got to get on those pieces. No timidity there.
Exercise: In just a few weeks, my weight loss plateau will celebrate its one-year anniversary. While I've accomplished a great deal over the last two years, I need to kickstart the downward trend again. I still have 40ish pounds to lose to achieve my goal weight, and at this point, exercise is about the only thing that I can change to make that happen. My plan is to do something about that this weekend. I have no choice.
But these are all short or semi-short-term projects. I feel like I have little or nothing planned for the long term (well, maybe the bathroom renovation and the weight loss). I have a couple of trips planned in early 2013, but beyond, like, February, nothing terribly solid. I need things to work toward and look forward to.
Maybe some of this is the weather. It's been so dark the last couple of days, it feels like it's been a sort of perpetual twilight. No, it's more than that. I need to feel like I have an aim, a purpose--and such a feeling has been in woefully short supply lately.
House projects: I recently replaced the disposal unit in my kitchen sink. The old one was Old (leaky, rusting) and needed replacing, even though I've been using the unit less and less since they instituted compost disposal around here. It was remarkably satisfying to get this little bit of maintenance done. Then next house project, then, is the upstairs bathroom. I want to clean it out this weekend in preparation for calling a plumber to deal with the non-functioning toilet. It will be nice to have a second bathroom again--and it's a nice little room. Then comes the big project up there--renovation--but that's for 2013. One flaming hoop at a time.
Writing: Apparently I am something of a writer, but I haven't been feeling much that way the last six months or so. What stories I've put in the mail this last year have been rejected (except the one sent to Greece, and I await its publication with impatience), and the critiques I've received have been making me feel more and more timid about showing my work to anyone. Anyone. I don't know what that's about except feeling outrageously sensitive and unjustifiably insecure. At the same time, I'm acutely aware of everyone around me who writes writing away like Writing Things.
Jewelry-making: A coworker has commissioned me to make jewelry as Christmas gifts for his daughter, sister, and mom. I've got to get on those pieces. No timidity there.
Exercise: In just a few weeks, my weight loss plateau will celebrate its one-year anniversary. While I've accomplished a great deal over the last two years, I need to kickstart the downward trend again. I still have 40ish pounds to lose to achieve my goal weight, and at this point, exercise is about the only thing that I can change to make that happen. My plan is to do something about that this weekend. I have no choice.
But these are all short or semi-short-term projects. I feel like I have little or nothing planned for the long term (well, maybe the bathroom renovation and the weight loss). I have a couple of trips planned in early 2013, but beyond, like, February, nothing terribly solid. I need things to work toward and look forward to.
Maybe some of this is the weather. It's been so dark the last couple of days, it feels like it's been a sort of perpetual twilight. No, it's more than that. I need to feel like I have an aim, a purpose--and such a feeling has been in woefully short supply lately.