staring at the phone
waiting for a ring
waiting for a buzz buzz
but all is silence

it's never who i want
or how i want
on the other end

i always have to ask
and take
and grab
why can't i just be given?

just never changes
does it
same dance
outside
same slow death
inside
can't stand to be crowded in
can't stand to be alone
just prowl behind the same bars
just like i always did
have
will
waiting for something
that'll never come
that i can't even describe
waiting fo someone
that'll never be
no knight in armor for me
all i have are
thoughts that let me be
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