I haven't updated in a long time
Not much to say I guess. I've started eating yogurt and carrots for lunch everyday. And I ride five miles on the excercize bike every morning. I'm trying to regulate my weight a little better. I don't mean I've started dieting, I'm just having smaller quantities for the most part. Having the same lunch everyday has actually helped. As has excercizing. It's not so much about losing weight as it is about not gaining any. Turns out I'm overweight, but since women have a tendency to flucuate constantly I've decided that as long as I'm within 10 pounds of the range I'm ok. Plus I feel like I look ok. That's the thing about extra pounds. Sometimes you're 20 over but you look perfectly good the way you are.
Still unemployed. No one's really hiring and I've yet to find a job I'm enthusiastic about. I've become very sheepish about jumping to send my resume since everyone's striking. I'm a supporter of the writers, being that I was cheated out of any pay I should've recieved, and I just can't willingly cross any picket lines. Not to mention that's a bad idea in terms of ever being hired again.
And Bobby won't return my calls, so I gave up on trying to work with him. I'm very angry about that because I really wanted to keep working with them while I was home and job hunting. I wanted to save up some money without getting roped into a job in my least favorite place of anywhere I've ever been. See the problem is that if I'm hired anywhere else locally I'm sort of stuck there relatively long-term. I really can't just leave after 3 months.
But to be honest I'm actually very happy as of late. Don't really know why. Must be all the excersize. I'm in a pretty good place in life. I'm living rent free and not waking up to go to work everyday. My job currently is helping take care of the house, and my mom said she's incredibly happy that I'm here. That's a good sign, cuz it means I'm pulling my weight. As pissed off as I am about having to leave Hollywood just to return to the place I've been running away from it's still very nice to be with my parents. And of course Melissa's local now. We don't hang out regularly but I can call or text her and we'll usually find a day to hang out. So it's not bad.
I don't know. I just so badly want to be not in Orange County. Especially after recent events involving people who I thought were good friends aggressively avoiding me. If you're reading this, I'm not referring to you. Just for the record.