Fallen World.

[scarlet__muse]

I have made so many stupid choices in my life and for that I have paid the price but it still and never will give me back the time I feel like I wasted when I was not being the best person I could be. I still struggle with personal issues that I have been working on and hopefully people have been noticing. I cannot and will not live like that. By that I don’t mean I struggle with wanting to be the way I used to be, but more like I struggle with jealousy, trusting in someone, and depressing myself from stressing out and being negative. I have so many good things in my life that there truly isn’t an excuse for how I act and present myself. There are so many people that have it worse than me and all I can do is complain. I see other people around me that are even worse than me with the complaining and I give them so much crap for it. It really makes me angry to see someone like that because they are hurting themselves as well as others and they don’t even realize that. It makes me angry because they are being selfish and ridiculous. People can be so blind to their actions or the truth and I just urge everyone to open up their lives to the truth! People just don’t understand how ignorant they really are, but then they talk about how ignorant other people are. Give me a break. You’re a teenager but you need to face the facts. Sleeping around with people will probably get you an std somewhere along they way…so if you have been sleeping around you probably should go get checked out. The relationships you are in now probably aren’t going to last forever, because most people our age are just too young to understand what a real relationship is. Everyone is broke for the most part…so stop trying to make someone else feel bad for you if you still have your parents to give you money. Just go get a job or ask them…I mean they do love you! That is just no excuse to mooch off of everyone else. When you get a ride from someone it is common courtesy to give them gas money! Be honest and faithful. Don’t drink and drive! Do become the best person you can be by giving your all and doing the things you love. Be passionate about life and curious and open to what there is to come. Don’t give up on yourself…if you make a mistake it is not the end of the world. Choose your friends wisely and love as much as you can. Give as much as you can-be selfless. Don’t ever lie…it’s not going to help you out in the end. Love your parents and treat them well. You are their world even if you don’t know it. Talk to them, be their friend on top of being their child. They will be so proud of you no matter what you do and will become more understanding the stumbles you may have in your life. I could go on and on forever about things like this but I am going to stop here with one last final thing-find out what you believe when it comes to faith. Let the truth dissolve in your body. Open up to it. Don’t close it out. The future is always coming and the time is now to figure out these things in life.

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On a side note: life is amazing. I love my sister best friend. She is my world, my shining light. She is the upmost appreciated!