I'm broken, but under repair...
Hmmm... quitting drugs is getting hard. Every day for the past few days I've been in contact with cocaine. It's making me fiend for it. At least, I've held my ground. Wow... I was doubtful, but I think I'm actually going to be able to do this. I have this new sense of clarity that I find intriguing. A new look at reality, but I think that one is mostly because it's there a lot more. I'm getting more and more introspective. It's showing up in my new songs too. That's another thing I'm starting to like. I'm writing songs again. I haven't really been able to since I quit. It's making me smile a little every now and then. Wow... I'm actually going to pull this off.
I feel real bad about Kerrianne at the moment. She cut her hair short and dyed it purple. It looks nice, but we were hanging out in my room, and Bryan came home. So, we looked at him and he started screaming and freaking out. He was saying, "Holy shit! I thought you were Lana! Why the fuck did you do that to your hair? To try and be Lana? You want to be Lana so Steve will like you?! Guess what? You're not fucking Lana!" and he went on for a while. Kerri looked like she was about to cry for a bit. I didn't know how to react. Part of me said, "Shut up, Bryan. Go away." The other part said, "Well... it does seem peculiar." It made me feel real bad. I don't know. Whatever.
My dreams are giving me hope. It a little nice, but I don't need more hope. I need luck, or skill, or a chance or something. Once again... whatever. La la la. I don't know what else to say. I like the Legend of Zelda.
I feel real bad about Kerrianne at the moment. She cut her hair short and dyed it purple. It looks nice, but we were hanging out in my room, and Bryan came home. So, we looked at him and he started screaming and freaking out. He was saying, "Holy shit! I thought you were Lana! Why the fuck did you do that to your hair? To try and be Lana? You want to be Lana so Steve will like you?! Guess what? You're not fucking Lana!" and he went on for a while. Kerri looked like she was about to cry for a bit. I didn't know how to react. Part of me said, "Shut up, Bryan. Go away." The other part said, "Well... it does seem peculiar." It made me feel real bad. I don't know. Whatever.
My dreams are giving me hope. It a little nice, but I don't need more hope. I need luck, or skill, or a chance or something. Once again... whatever. La la la. I don't know what else to say. I like the Legend of Zelda.