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As I read Jenna's post it really made me think a whole lot more about what I've been thinking about constantly lately.
Since I left the halls of Sun Valley I changed a whole fuckin lot.
I didn't even do a 360. I didn't change drastically, but yet again, I did. I am a totally different person now than I was then. I wouldn't say I look differently, I don't think differently either. But yet again, I do. Nothing has changed but nothing is the same.
I've got new ideas in my head, about people, about issues in my life, about myself.
That's really why I lost touch with- basically everyone that used to be in my life. I'm slowly coming back around, but it won't be full circle. It's a new path. I'll branch out off of my cirle, maybe into the shape of a Q.
I've realized what's really important in life.
Loving, losing, letting go, learning, and most of all, not forgetting what/who got you where you are. Never forget that even though I haven't seen Jeff Pilgrim since he left aston that I still think about him a lot and all the times he made me laugh. Not forgetting that Jenna helped me run the mile without stopping and that she was always there to make me feel like I wasn't a complete loser even though we barely talk anymore, and she will always have time for me. Knowing that if I ever need a ride somewhere Martin will be there to pick me up, and I the same for him. And that I'll never give up on my loser friends, because deep inside, they aren't really losers at all. They are wonderful people, and I know that or else I wouldn't be their friends. And most of all, I hope that Joe will continue to be there for the pee-monster that I am, and that he knows that the pee-monster will always be there for his poopy-face even if we're not together anymore.
I may not hang out with all my 'old friends' and I will never be able to 'keep in touch' with everyone that I have loved in my life, I know I will always remember them and keep those memories in a special place in that filing cabinet I call my brain. Hopefully they'll remember me too.
And to all the people I still see and hang out with, and share my life with, I love you all too. More than anything in the world.
Since I left the halls of Sun Valley I changed a whole fuckin lot.
I didn't even do a 360. I didn't change drastically, but yet again, I did. I am a totally different person now than I was then. I wouldn't say I look differently, I don't think differently either. But yet again, I do. Nothing has changed but nothing is the same.
I've got new ideas in my head, about people, about issues in my life, about myself.
That's really why I lost touch with- basically everyone that used to be in my life. I'm slowly coming back around, but it won't be full circle. It's a new path. I'll branch out off of my cirle, maybe into the shape of a Q.
I've realized what's really important in life.
Loving, losing, letting go, learning, and most of all, not forgetting what/who got you where you are. Never forget that even though I haven't seen Jeff Pilgrim since he left aston that I still think about him a lot and all the times he made me laugh. Not forgetting that Jenna helped me run the mile without stopping and that she was always there to make me feel like I wasn't a complete loser even though we barely talk anymore, and she will always have time for me. Knowing that if I ever need a ride somewhere Martin will be there to pick me up, and I the same for him. And that I'll never give up on my loser friends, because deep inside, they aren't really losers at all. They are wonderful people, and I know that or else I wouldn't be their friends. And most of all, I hope that Joe will continue to be there for the pee-monster that I am, and that he knows that the pee-monster will always be there for his poopy-face even if we're not together anymore.
I may not hang out with all my 'old friends' and I will never be able to 'keep in touch' with everyone that I have loved in my life, I know I will always remember them and keep those memories in a special place in that filing cabinet I call my brain. Hopefully they'll remember me too.
And to all the people I still see and hang out with, and share my life with, I love you all too. More than anything in the world.