men were made to confuse women +nod+ ....take two.
now it's the other guy. i had convinced myself that due to how we met and my intimacy issues which i WON'T try and get over unless he makes me [which he won't] the relationship was doomed.
then he took me on an actual date again for the first time in about a month - and i didn't ask him to. i told him i had no money so he took me anyway and paid. for the first time in a while we just chilled and had one of our three hour long conversations that we're... i'm used to and he promised to see me more than once this week. now, i'd be lying if i said i wasn't starting to feel that little bit more comfortable around him. i'm still going to have my intimacy issues but i think he's actually just really accepting of that... and possibly really perceptive so it's not like i neeed to say anything. i suppose this is a 'time will tell' situation BUT
you know how i'm already baffled by anton? i don't need him doing this to me too /)_(\ and now i'm being told it's best i just pick one and i'm like... pulling out my hair at the thought because i really just DON'T know.
who said dating was an easy way to choose between the guys you like? they LIED.
on a side note. i decided i'll try... living with my mother once more. having a hostel has its upsides but they don't outweigh the downsides and some of the supposed 'upsides' are not... constructive ones. like i need more of a reason to stay out and party to 4am /)_-
then he took me on an actual date again for the first time in about a month - and i didn't ask him to. i told him i had no money so he took me anyway and paid. for the first time in a while we just chilled and had one of our three hour long conversations that we're... i'm used to and he promised to see me more than once this week. now, i'd be lying if i said i wasn't starting to feel that little bit more comfortable around him. i'm still going to have my intimacy issues but i think he's actually just really accepting of that... and possibly really perceptive so it's not like i neeed to say anything. i suppose this is a 'time will tell' situation BUT
you know how i'm already baffled by anton? i don't need him doing this to me too /)_(\ and now i'm being told it's best i just pick one and i'm like... pulling out my hair at the thought because i really just DON'T know.
who said dating was an easy way to choose between the guys you like? they LIED.
on a side note. i decided i'll try... living with my mother once more. having a hostel has its upsides but they don't outweigh the downsides and some of the supposed 'upsides' are not... constructive ones. like i need more of a reason to stay out and party to 4am /)_-