Death and Emotion
Now I know this may sound wierd but just recently a relative passed away. She was my Aunt's Mother (no relation). Although there was no relation she always treated me like one of her own grandaughters and she was the sweetest lady ever. She had been battling lung cancer for over 10 years, but it never showed in her. Her spirit was always lifted and she was always so kind. One time when I went to New York (on a Sunday night) my mom decided that we would go visit her. Now, since it was already late and I had school the next day I threw a fit! I yelled at my mom saying i didn't want to go, but in the end we ended up going anyway. I was all pissed off , but then when I got there I saw the reality of it. She was still in her apartment but needed oxygen and was struggling to talk. Still she tried to talk to all of us as much as she could because we hadn't seen her in a couple of months because of her condition. Anyways, i greeted her with a kiss on the cheek and she told me how beautiful I was...I felt so guilty. Knowing that that was the last place I had wanted to be and here she was so happy that I had come. The whole ride home I jsut had felt so guilty and I had a few moments of tears, becuase the whole thing was just so upsetting. Then on Sunday , we found out she had been hospitalized so we had to go see her. My Aunt told us she was doing extremely bad and that it wasnt' the right time. My family had felt that night that she should've went to see her. However,Monday night we had found out that she passed away. That just made us all feel even more guilty knowing that we shoulda went to visit her. Like some people told me..its better off now she doesn't hvae to suffer anymore. But what really made me feel better about the situation was the people who were really there for me. And that's what counted soo much! And throughout all my guilt and saddness, i found that friends are what really made me feel better about the situation...so for the people who were there thanks so much becuase it means so much! And as for the moral to this story? I don't know...just figured I'd share it