My addiction has started again.
I just need to hear that it's going to be ok.
I was so mad last night. I screamed and shouted on the phone with Gabby, this is just not healthy for my self.
I told her what he said me, and when she got all pissed off about it, I couldn't believe what I did. I defended him. To her. What? She said. Why the hell are you defending him? That is NOT something a normal person says to a friend.
She's right. Why did I defend him, even when I called to complain?
So I backed off. Haven't talked to him all day since trying to explain how I feel only gets me rolling eyes and sugar coated apologies.
Jade said actions speak louder than words. She can't figure him out, either. But that's not a surprise, since she's horrible at understanding people. We've been good lately. We openly talk about the fact that we wouldn't naturally be friends and that we probably won't miss each other. We've been spending a lot of time together, canoeing and climbing roofs, which is nice.
I'll be home for the summer by the end of the month, and I can't wait.