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so yeah last night...i cant even really say how weird it was. especially if one is not prepared for such things. My sister and I are the closest grandkids to my granparents...we spent more time with them as kids and still try to. My grandmother can cry in front of me because she knows she doesnt have much time left, she couldnt even ask my other cousin to give her a back rub. Ive never felt so hopeless in my life.
My grandmother is the stongest woman i know, she has beaten terminal cancer once and now, 5 months later...this. Ive been trying to get to know her, trying to soak up as much information to pass down to younger generations as possible, but..it was hard to concentrate when all i as thinking about was not having her around anymore. How hard it would be and how worried of my grandfather i am. My grandfather is my favorite person in the world, i think i mentioned a whole entry just about him a couple posts back. Hell circle the world for me, hes given me so much-they both have. I look up to them so much. They have accomplished so many things in their lifes. My grandmother was a oprah singer in japan when she was young and then taught music at Burkley and BU for years and recieved many awards. She went to school while taking care of 3 boys and didnt even know english very well, and then went on to get her doctorate in the arts-music education.
My grandfather is much of the same and he got his master in college education. he was a professor at BU for 10 years until he was granted the position of Dean and BU, SED. theyve been through so much. and i hope i can do as much as they have.
im just sad. this whole house is one big bucket of tears. My dad looks like hes always pissed-but of course-his mom is passing away! i wish i could help, i wish i could make it all go away.
caitlin sayo <3
My grandmother is the stongest woman i know, she has beaten terminal cancer once and now, 5 months later...this. Ive been trying to get to know her, trying to soak up as much information to pass down to younger generations as possible, but..it was hard to concentrate when all i as thinking about was not having her around anymore. How hard it would be and how worried of my grandfather i am. My grandfather is my favorite person in the world, i think i mentioned a whole entry just about him a couple posts back. Hell circle the world for me, hes given me so much-they both have. I look up to them so much. They have accomplished so many things in their lifes. My grandmother was a oprah singer in japan when she was young and then taught music at Burkley and BU for years and recieved many awards. She went to school while taking care of 3 boys and didnt even know english very well, and then went on to get her doctorate in the arts-music education.
My grandfather is much of the same and he got his master in college education. he was a professor at BU for 10 years until he was granted the position of Dean and BU, SED. theyve been through so much. and i hope i can do as much as they have.
im just sad. this whole house is one big bucket of tears. My dad looks like hes always pissed-but of course-his mom is passing away! i wish i could help, i wish i could make it all go away.
caitlin sayo <3