Hello Strangers

[saygemarie]

So yet again i have the internet. don't know where to start. Lonny broke up with me and a few weeks later he got engaged to the girl who introduced me to him 4 years ago (amanda) . he had told me he was in love with her too about a year and a half ago, but i didnt think he had a chance. and who am i to say they cant go bike riding or go to coffee

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Re: I wish the best for you...

[saygemarie]

how can we ever be friends? i cant be mad at lonny because i knew his feelings for you. you however fed me lie after lie after lie "i could never date him, dont tell him this but he reminds me too much of my ex" "he is nothing more than a brother to me" ect ect. and you would sit and help me talk through my relationship problems like a friend would, all the while either developing feelings for him (and a friend would distance herself if that was the case) or as i origianally thought, the whole engagement was just payback for brian not taking you back. but ::shrug:: yes im angry at you, yes im bitter at you. i dont think i will ever get over this deep of a betrayal from you. even when i KNEW he loved you too i allowed him to spend alone time with you because i TRUSTED the two of you together. he BEGGED me not to tell you that you were the reason he broke up with me 2 years ago because he said you and brian would never talk to him again. i respected that because i knew you were my friend. Your wedding invitation WAS beautiful. Lonny told me almost everytime we went to bridal veil about how many couples got thier pictures there so it was no surprise. I told lonny that i was not mad at him and that i was bitter towards you so im surprised you wrote to me. i am in no position to forgive you. Brian talks to me almost everyday. He said he IS happy for you and him and that if invited to your wedding he will give you two a gift. thought i would pass along that message. I miss Heather believe it or not. Hope she is doing well. Good luck getting a job. i hope you can see things from my perspective. i feel like my entire relationship with lonny was a lie. with him just WAITING for the opportunity with you. and in many ways he was. knowing that 4 years of lies and deciet were fed to me is the worst burden to bear. knowing i could have had my own family by now with someone who would love me in return. instead i got someone who chose me as second choice to you. THATS WHY IM ANGRY

Re: I wish the best for you...

[werehampster]

I would rather discuss this face to face, when you are ready. There is a lot that you don't know. Good luck.