Burn Burn Burn
I'm feeling all burned out.
I'm really sick right now...maybe because I haven't had a proper rest since coming back from Manila and I've been doing 9-10 hour shifts everyday since last week. Killer. I spend my day working, dinner then sleep na. I barely have time to watch TV! I reserve all my energy for work...which wasn't how it was before.
It doesn't help that the other teacher I work with doesn't get back until February and I've got about 8 new kids on top of my existing 16 old ones.
Having new kids are really, really tough. Especially for the age group I handle (2-3's). They're at an awkward stage where they're pretty independent (can paint, do puzzles, read a book, wash hands, choose not to listen) but still need our help with everything. And the worst part is, they still cry!!! Cry all day if they wanted to! You can do cartwheels and do a juggling act in front of them and they just. won't. stop. It's actually unbelievable sometimes...their energy. Even I can't carry on crying (as in wailing) for an hour! Anyway, it just feels like when we opened last September all over again.
Picture this:
I have 10 kids in the room, 3 of them clinging on to me, crying their eyes out...I have parents coming in to drop of their kids and they want to chat...toys flying about...other kids wanting me to read them a story...or tugging my blouse to do painting...Wiggles CD in the background...morning tea to think about...help wash all of these little kids' hands...Aieee!!! Sometimes I just want to hang myself.
*sigh*
And it's been raining the last few days. I feel a little bit blue. ='(
And I know when it rains this week, we're up for a scorching week the next. Di ko na yata kakayanin!
AND, to top all of this work-stress, Litsa, the Greek girl that I like from work, has resigned na. She's leaving in a week or two. Now mas lalo pa kaming understaffed! F*ck!!! This could mean more 10-hour shifts until Jane gets back! This bites.
BLEARGH.
I'm really not well but I feel bad about calling in sick because I know we don't have enough people. And some of my kids are really attached to me to the point where some of them will cry the whole day if I'm not there. I don't wanna hassle anyone lang. I dunno... but I guess mas ok na kesa naman I risk making my kids sick, too, right?
We'll see. I hope the Paracetamol works.
I sleep now. Good night.
I'm really sick right now...maybe because I haven't had a proper rest since coming back from Manila and I've been doing 9-10 hour shifts everyday since last week. Killer. I spend my day working, dinner then sleep na. I barely have time to watch TV! I reserve all my energy for work...which wasn't how it was before.
It doesn't help that the other teacher I work with doesn't get back until February and I've got about 8 new kids on top of my existing 16 old ones.
Having new kids are really, really tough. Especially for the age group I handle (2-3's). They're at an awkward stage where they're pretty independent (can paint, do puzzles, read a book, wash hands, choose not to listen) but still need our help with everything. And the worst part is, they still cry!!! Cry all day if they wanted to! You can do cartwheels and do a juggling act in front of them and they just. won't. stop. It's actually unbelievable sometimes...their energy. Even I can't carry on crying (as in wailing) for an hour! Anyway, it just feels like when we opened last September all over again.
Picture this:
I have 10 kids in the room, 3 of them clinging on to me, crying their eyes out...I have parents coming in to drop of their kids and they want to chat...toys flying about...other kids wanting me to read them a story...or tugging my blouse to do painting...Wiggles CD in the background...morning tea to think about...help wash all of these little kids' hands...Aieee!!! Sometimes I just want to hang myself.
*sigh*
And it's been raining the last few days. I feel a little bit blue. ='(
And I know when it rains this week, we're up for a scorching week the next. Di ko na yata kakayanin!
AND, to top all of this work-stress, Litsa, the Greek girl that I like from work, has resigned na. She's leaving in a week or two. Now mas lalo pa kaming understaffed! F*ck!!! This could mean more 10-hour shifts until Jane gets back! This bites.
BLEARGH.
I'm really not well but I feel bad about calling in sick because I know we don't have enough people. And some of my kids are really attached to me to the point where some of them will cry the whole day if I'm not there. I don't wanna hassle anyone lang. I dunno... but I guess mas ok na kesa naman I risk making my kids sick, too, right?
We'll see. I hope the Paracetamol works.
I sleep now. Good night.