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[say_kiss]

Girls are one big fucking contradiction. Hence the reggression of my attitude. Apparantly, i had it right before when i was in highschool

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[anonymous]

I am of the nice guy origin, or at least that’s what people say, and I experience the same thing daily. I feel emotional pain pretty much everyday because I recently became attached to someone that posed interest in me and then didn’t and now we’re best friends, and I really do honestly, genuinely, sincerely (I can’t think of any other word that would describe how earnestly I feel) want to be bestest-estest friends with this one, more than anything. I had a sampling of not being her friend for about 12 hours and that just sucked. My friend recently began using that above away message and I never had the heart to tell her how much I hated it because of exactly what you said. I do all of those things and am there for her as long as I am physically capable, and reading that away message makes me think that I’m just not good enough (like you said). It’s obvious that I do these things, it’s impossible for her to ignore, but yet she still felt like she needed to put that away message up. If I do all the things without her telling me to, out of the goodness of my own heart, yet she still wishes for the “ideal guy” what does that make me? It makes me think, “Wow I guess I’m not up to her standards…physically and emotionally.” I guess my frustration simply originates from the fact that I’ve never felt so naturally connected to someone in all of my life, and she tells me, the connection for her just isn’t there...so there it is, the story of my life. I’m just not _______ for every girl. I want her to be happy, but lately I have been making that effort at the expense of my own happiness and can’t seem to break away from doing it. She comes to me asking for advice and I give it to her as honestly as I can but it just hurts…but I can’t stop helping her, because what kind of friend would I be if I just said “I can’t talk to you about this, it hurts me too much”? A little selfish on my part I think…Of course all my friends disagree and many have approached me worried about my happiness, and I don’t listen to them, because I just care about her. I just do, I’m not going to stop just because she has some problems that she asks me about that hurt me. I constantly tell myself to move on, but every time I try, I think of her. It’s a vicious cycle that only I am putting myself through on account of my personality being so damn stubbornly kind. I’m sorry for simply venting my problems and not providing any substance or meaning to the postings. I’m sorry if I made you read this getting your hopes up for me to make some grand point like all of the posts above, but to have your actual first love so hopelessly in love with someone else is just so…disheartening. Everyone tells me there’s always college, but from what I see above my chances aren’t looking too good.

[anonymous]

as to college, the only real problem is that everyone goes in expecting to find all these people who are more understanding, more like them, more mature about things, etc., maybe because of the dislike they felt towards the type of people in their high school. But really, they need to look inside of themselves and then apply it to the outside world, which is what I had to do. So it's not that college will bring you all of these 'better' people (which it will actually seem like at first) but I think college gives you the opportunity to understand what you need in a relationship.
Its funny, I was talking to a friend over christmas break and we were discussing the evolution of the types of boys we have dated since high school. She described this boy who was the emodiment of what we would have fallen head over heels for in high school. Beautiful, funny, etc. But now we felt disgusted with him for reasons such as he wasn't paying attention in class... i mean, if you are in college, DONT GO to class if you are just going to goof off, we are there to make something of our lives. We realized that now we crave more substance than we did in high school, where boys and love were more of an entertainment, i.e. will do cute things for us, etc. And now we crave someone who we can talk to intellectually, someone with whom is just as much fun to go to eat with on your lunch break as to go out with on a friday night. aaaand I will stop myself here from rambling on an getting off topic...
Sorry I appealed only to the last sentence of your entry, I was aiming only to give you a ray of hope and a little warning for the future, but it appears I wrote a novel instead.

[k_law114]

carter... i dont even know what to say, I'm not worth all this, I swear it I'm not. I dont know what you see in me, but I promise you that you deserve a person ten million times better than me. And I'm not "just saying that" or trying to use it as the usual cliche, I truly mean it. Your friendship means so much to me, and you are always there for me no matter what, and I don't know if you realize how much you mean to me. You deserve the absolute best and I know I can't give that to you, but you'll find it eventually, because the nice guy always DOES win in the end, and when he does he gets everything he's always wanted and deserved.