Long, tired ramblings
I had to buy more baby gifts tonight, for my friend Terri's shower (which I can't actually attend because of work) and my assistant manager's wife's shower (which I'm not sure if I can actually attend until I get my September schedule). Terri had a breast pump on her registry and I wanted to be the weirdo who actually got it for her, but they were out of stock, so we settled for a diaper bag. Rebecca picked out Andrea's gift, a "rainforest bath set". She was very decisive about it. I think shopping for these sorts of gifts make our hormones kick in in a really bad way, so hopefully we won't have to do it again for a while, otherwise we'll be having our own baby shower. Or not, we're not that bad, yet. (Why can't we have a kitty shower and make a registry for litterboxes and catnip mice?)
This all brings me to the question of "why the hell is everyone in my life suddenly reproducing?" Seriously, there's Erin and Terri, my manager and his wife, another co-worker of mine from my former store, one of my brother's friends. Seriously. Babies. Everywhere. And people are moving all over the place and getting married and shit. I guess it's my age. But it's a very sudden "whoa, what happened?" sort of phenomenon.
My early 20s were all about college and part-time jobs and going to diners in the middle of the night. They were about road trips and hotels and sushi and long, crazy conversations about whatever. They were about falling and longing for girls I couldn't have, dancing in clubs and having racy photoshoots in basements. They were about having too much to drink and laughing or crying myself senseless. They were about feeling lost, directionless and adrift: intense highs and intense lows. Then came last year, which blew in like a hurricane and left my life rearranged. I don't think the magnitude of my evolution sank in while it was in progress. Now my life is about my relationship, my family, work and bills and some spare cash to buy fun stuff I've always wanted. It's about quiet, peaceful times when I can escape from the world. It's about vacations and days off and grocery shopping and laundry. It's about decorating and planning and saving money. My life has developed some of the structure I have always wanted so badly. It's lost most of the intense highs, but I'm probably better off for it.
We are renewing our lease at the end of this month for another year. I'm looking toward getting promoted. I think I'm finally accepting that the gears won't kick into reverse and the life I've made for myself here isn't temporary. I'm feeling like I am actually a grown-up instead of a kid playing at being grown-up when it's convenient. It's really, really odd how fast the years are going now. I remember when they used to drag on forever.
This all brings me to the question of "why the hell is everyone in my life suddenly reproducing?" Seriously, there's Erin and Terri, my manager and his wife, another co-worker of mine from my former store, one of my brother's friends. Seriously. Babies. Everywhere. And people are moving all over the place and getting married and shit. I guess it's my age. But it's a very sudden "whoa, what happened?" sort of phenomenon.
My early 20s were all about college and part-time jobs and going to diners in the middle of the night. They were about road trips and hotels and sushi and long, crazy conversations about whatever. They were about falling and longing for girls I couldn't have, dancing in clubs and having racy photoshoots in basements. They were about having too much to drink and laughing or crying myself senseless. They were about feeling lost, directionless and adrift: intense highs and intense lows. Then came last year, which blew in like a hurricane and left my life rearranged. I don't think the magnitude of my evolution sank in while it was in progress. Now my life is about my relationship, my family, work and bills and some spare cash to buy fun stuff I've always wanted. It's about quiet, peaceful times when I can escape from the world. It's about vacations and days off and grocery shopping and laundry. It's about decorating and planning and saving money. My life has developed some of the structure I have always wanted so badly. It's lost most of the intense highs, but I'm probably better off for it.
We are renewing our lease at the end of this month for another year. I'm looking toward getting promoted. I think I'm finally accepting that the gears won't kick into reverse and the life I've made for myself here isn't temporary. I'm feeling like I am actually a grown-up instead of a kid playing at being grown-up when it's convenient. It's really, really odd how fast the years are going now. I remember when they used to drag on forever.