breakdowns
my mom might go back on prosac. That's not good. Lately she's been coming into my room at night and just kneels by my bed. I don't know if she's praying or not. I don't ever let her know that i'm not asleep. She needs time to sit an think or pray. I've been getting alot of stomach aches caused by nothing. I think it's sympathy pains from my mothers grief. It won't go away, this is the 8th day i've had them. The other day at work i had two heart "freak outs". both within 6 hours. I was so drained. I'm scared for her and i'm scared for me. I found out that at that time my mom was having a breakdown at home. I almost did on the phone with paul. after i hung up i just cried and cried. I don't know why. I'm hoping it's my mom's depression and not one that i've developed of my own. I don't like this feeling, i've been depressed like every normal person has, but this is different. I know something is coming. I can feel it. The fact that my mom has major ESP and is feeling this way too is creeping me out. It sounds like a bunch of hocus pocus, i know, but how else explain the nightmares, the fact that my mom is on her knees..(which hasn't happened for at least 4 years) and i don't know when this physical ache in the pit of my stomach is going to go away. ....I don't mean for this to be such a downer of a letter, but this is what's going on. and i'm scared. xoxoxox