dude this is long....
I'm beginning to despise this age. I'm at that stage in life where everyone is desperately scrambling around to find a mate, and I'm not into it. I mean, I sometimes want to be with someone or whatever but I think most of it is just biological urges. I've been in relationships, and I can tell you that I've been the happiest when I'm just by myself. I feel like I'm expected to find someone to go out with, and its worse when everyone else I know is in a relationship or trying to be in one.
It also doesn't help the only people I'm attracted to are middle aged men, or 18/19 year old boys that I barely know. There's probably a reason that I don't get realistic crushes.
I know I'm not the only one this happens too, but... Lately it feels like people are treating me differently, and I don't feel comfortable around anyone. I trust people, and think that they are friends, but then something in me changes and suddenly it feels like they don't like me. I can't talk to anyone anymore, at least not honestly. I'm hoping its a passing phase, because I hate being so fake around people!
Also, I don't really despise this age (thats so negative Weezie!). The past few years have been the best ever. I just can't stop caring about what people think about me, or expect from me, and I don't like it.
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Robin is a character from the a trilogy I'm reading by John Varley. These books have kind of changed my point of view, at least on certain aspects of life. I like em. Robin is a witch (but not our conventional version). She grew up in an all female society, and she cut off one of her own fingers. The snake is her "demon" Nassau. The only reference that I used was a picture of Ziyi Zhang for the pose, and several random pictures of snakes, studied for the sake of anatomy.
It also doesn't help the only people I'm attracted to are middle aged men, or 18/19 year old boys that I barely know. There's probably a reason that I don't get realistic crushes.
I know I'm not the only one this happens too, but... Lately it feels like people are treating me differently, and I don't feel comfortable around anyone. I trust people, and think that they are friends, but then something in me changes and suddenly it feels like they don't like me. I can't talk to anyone anymore, at least not honestly. I'm hoping its a passing phase, because I hate being so fake around people!
Also, I don't really despise this age (thats so negative Weezie!). The past few years have been the best ever. I just can't stop caring about what people think about me, or expect from me, and I don't like it.
click for larger version (then click again when you get there)
Robin is a character from the a trilogy I'm reading by John Varley. These books have kind of changed my point of view, at least on certain aspects of life. I like em. Robin is a witch (but not our conventional version). She grew up in an all female society, and she cut off one of her own fingers. The snake is her "demon" Nassau. The only reference that I used was a picture of Ziyi Zhang for the pose, and several random pictures of snakes, studied for the sake of anatomy.