I am just a ghost
Just a ghost... that's how I feel..
Waiting in limbo... Not here but not there..
I've probably done more in 3 days than I've done in a past weeks...
I've been on the phone with my sister ALOT...
I went to the commissary today and then to the exchange where I looked at the 'Jet Stream'(The Marine Corp Air Station newspaper) where I found an article on the front page about the recent deployment to Japan.. After that I kinda walked around the exchange clutching the paper.. I bought a new shirt that says , "Honor courage Committment... US Marine Wife".. It's hot.. But it keeps rolling up over my pregnant belly.. not real bad but I don't like my skin showing in any way... Oh well..
I went to deposit money into my account so I could order my brother's CD offline but my slow ass forgot my account #... So didn't accomplish that today..
I decided to buy it in support of him instead of just waiting for him to give it to me..
My sister bought it and I had her read the 'Thank you' portion of the album and what he wrote to me definately made me cry... It's so crazy cause back in the day I use to always tell him when he finally made a cd I better be on the thank you's and he'd always respond with , "you know this".. like duhhhhh..
I'm thinking about still going home for xmas .. I just honestly have never been without my family for Christmas and who knows with my g'ma and her health this could be her last..
And Derek is gone and i'm gonna be all pregnant and full of hormones... I'll only be 10 days into my final trimester... Plus, then my sister will throw me a baby shower cause i'm not gonna get one here, i'd have no one to invite...
When Derek was talking about his re-enlistment and places we could put down for transfer options of course pax river is my first choice cause it's md.. But we still have to pick 2 other choices.. I asked if where my wifey is could be an option but he said he didn't think so... That would be my 2nd choice in a heartbeat... but that doesn't seem possible..
I just wish I wasn't here *right* now.. I swear if it wasn't for my new puppy i would've bolted up north for a week or so..
But I did just had a chance to talk to Derek.. there was a typhoon y/day so they were on lockdown so I didn't hear from him all day (computer or phone) and he had told me I would so I was concerned..
Him and his roomie are gonna get internet in their room since dude has a laptop...
Today has been a better day so i'm not gonna sit here and reflect on all the negativity i'm sure I could drudge up...
Just stay active and embrace whatever i can..
8 mins till my Flavor of love...........so gotta go..
p.s...
Thank you suzie..
You didn't have to give a damn
For you to do so...
Touching...
Waiting in limbo... Not here but not there..
I've probably done more in 3 days than I've done in a past weeks...
I've been on the phone with my sister ALOT...
I went to the commissary today and then to the exchange where I looked at the 'Jet Stream'(The Marine Corp Air Station newspaper) where I found an article on the front page about the recent deployment to Japan.. After that I kinda walked around the exchange clutching the paper.. I bought a new shirt that says , "Honor courage Committment... US Marine Wife".. It's hot.. But it keeps rolling up over my pregnant belly.. not real bad but I don't like my skin showing in any way... Oh well..
I went to deposit money into my account so I could order my brother's CD offline but my slow ass forgot my account #... So didn't accomplish that today..
I decided to buy it in support of him instead of just waiting for him to give it to me..
My sister bought it and I had her read the 'Thank you' portion of the album and what he wrote to me definately made me cry... It's so crazy cause back in the day I use to always tell him when he finally made a cd I better be on the thank you's and he'd always respond with , "you know this".. like duhhhhh..
I'm thinking about still going home for xmas .. I just honestly have never been without my family for Christmas and who knows with my g'ma and her health this could be her last..
And Derek is gone and i'm gonna be all pregnant and full of hormones... I'll only be 10 days into my final trimester... Plus, then my sister will throw me a baby shower cause i'm not gonna get one here, i'd have no one to invite...
When Derek was talking about his re-enlistment and places we could put down for transfer options of course pax river is my first choice cause it's md.. But we still have to pick 2 other choices.. I asked if where my wifey is could be an option but he said he didn't think so... That would be my 2nd choice in a heartbeat... but that doesn't seem possible..
I just wish I wasn't here *right* now.. I swear if it wasn't for my new puppy i would've bolted up north for a week or so..
But I did just had a chance to talk to Derek.. there was a typhoon y/day so they were on lockdown so I didn't hear from him all day (computer or phone) and he had told me I would so I was concerned..
Him and his roomie are gonna get internet in their room since dude has a laptop...
Today has been a better day so i'm not gonna sit here and reflect on all the negativity i'm sure I could drudge up...
Just stay active and embrace whatever i can..
8 mins till my Flavor of love...........so gotta go..
p.s...
Thank you suzie..
You didn't have to give a damn
For you to do so...
Touching...