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i am a pro at letting myself down. I have such high expectations for anything good that comes my way. i think I have a new job... but I don't think that's the case anymore. I am interested in someone... but he has proven unreliable. it's so aggravating. I hate that I get so excited. I should have learned by now... good things tend to not last very long. I'm probably getting ahead of myself right now. I know I am... things may work out. MIGHT. It's frustrating. I feel like he might be slightly uncomfortable with our 7 year age difference. I don't feel like it's a big deal. You are as old as you feel, and I don't feel like I'm 19. I feel like I'm a 20 something stuck in a teenager's body. I can't even fathom dating some one my own age. blah. I feel like a hot tranny mess.