Argh!!

[savagemind]

Yesterday a lot of the anxiety that I've been feeling lately finally came to a head. I'd been feeling very complacent and dull for weeks and yesterday I just snapped. I went out and kicked some ass. My own, actually. I punched, kicked and slammed my body into some truly undeserving inanimate objects. It didn't really help. However, today I went to the gym--still sore from yesterday's violence--and put more effort into my workout than I ever had before. I probably pushed myself too far because for the first time in a long time my muscles feel so sore that I can't even lift a half-empty gallon of milk to make a bowl of cereal. Sore and overworked I may be, but I feel better also. I feel exhausted because of a lack of sleep and too much weight-lifting but I also feel energetic. I feel more confident, powerful and less tense...and somehow that makes me nervous, like something must have been slipped into my drink when I wasn't watching. I also feel in-fucking-credibly horny and I want to have sex. Right now. Maybe it's because of that sense of confidence, maybe it's because I feel more aware of my body, or maybe it's because the sex has been so good this last month but damn. And what's stopping me? My presence on Livejournal should be all the answer that you require. Giana and I can't stand each other right now and the more fun we seem to have the more she seems to believe that something's wrong. So we had a fight yesterday morning, haven't spoken since, and I'm getting tired of her temper. I'm sure that our fight played a role in my "snapping".

And on a completely unrelated note I'm unleashing this icon because, well, it's awesome.