dead end

[saucy_sophy]

every time i see anything linking to the past, it gives me the most awful sick feeling inside.
i know he can't just delete his past
that it's always gonna be there
that yes he had copious amounts of girlfriends before he met me
and yes he's lied to me about a helluva lot of them.
i can do nothing about this except to accept it and focus on the future.
i'm trying so hard to do this and i can't.
what the fuck is wrong with me