Some things to ponder
So I know I just updated about 2.5 seconds ago . . . but I've got some stuff on my mind.
For those of you who know me fairly well, you have heard this before and I apologize . . . I'm about to be somewhat repetitive . . .
Once again it has come to my attention just how quiet and/or shy I am. Every so often I like to fool myself into thinking I'm more outgoing than I used to be, but I'm not so sure about that. The problem is . . . I know I have no reason at all to be shy. There's just a gap somewhere between my logic and my persona. Cognitively speaking, I understand that there is no harm in being completely myself, in fact it'd be quite the opposite of harm . . . being who I am right from the start would have undeniable benefits. But in practice it doesn't quite work out for me.
Now I don't pretend to be someone I'm not . . . I just don't open up very easily. Which I guess would be an omission of the true me which in and of itself is a lie about who I really am?
And the real kicker is that I've helped so many people be true to themselves and lead more fulfilling lives . . . but I can't seem to help myself. Not to say that my life isn't fulfilling, it really is . . . I just feel like there's more that I could be experiencing. Maybe it's just my view that there's always room for improvement, and the fact that I'm constantly striving for said improvement . . . but this is an area in which I've noticed a real need and haven't yet been able to evolve . . . and it's somewhat frustrating.
I guess that's the end of this rant. I'm peacin' out.
For those of you who know me fairly well, you have heard this before and I apologize . . . I'm about to be somewhat repetitive . . .
Once again it has come to my attention just how quiet and/or shy I am. Every so often I like to fool myself into thinking I'm more outgoing than I used to be, but I'm not so sure about that. The problem is . . . I know I have no reason at all to be shy. There's just a gap somewhere between my logic and my persona. Cognitively speaking, I understand that there is no harm in being completely myself, in fact it'd be quite the opposite of harm . . . being who I am right from the start would have undeniable benefits. But in practice it doesn't quite work out for me.
Now I don't pretend to be someone I'm not . . . I just don't open up very easily. Which I guess would be an omission of the true me which in and of itself is a lie about who I really am?
And the real kicker is that I've helped so many people be true to themselves and lead more fulfilling lives . . . but I can't seem to help myself. Not to say that my life isn't fulfilling, it really is . . . I just feel like there's more that I could be experiencing. Maybe it's just my view that there's always room for improvement, and the fact that I'm constantly striving for said improvement . . . but this is an area in which I've noticed a real need and haven't yet been able to evolve . . . and it's somewhat frustrating.
I guess that's the end of this rant. I'm peacin' out.