An end I didn't want to see....
~Earth
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months and for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round with my head down
I'm so over being blue cryin over you
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me Of what used to be
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio
Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
It's over...
I tried...
Crying, screaming, whined, kicked, screamed, and still nothing. He still wants to go through with this stupid thing. It's mostly my fault mostly for the "open" relationship thing. I can't take seeing someone else when I still have plans to be with the "other". It's just too hard and it's not fair to the third party!! So what now?
I suffer...
We are still going to be friends...( If he replies to my email...If... ) but nothing more than that. All I can say to him now is...
"I warned you..." (sounds bad doesn't it? ;_; )
And all I can do is hope that someday...somehow...I'll be good enough for him...
For the moment, he is on a 30 day probation from speaking to me...(Except on the the C-A forums or LJ because that still needs to get done and Kimiko please help me from not calling him too...)
Also to Fai-Thank you so much for helping not cry myself to sleep. *hugs*
It ends tonight and begins tomorrow...my new life...
~Ja...