Fic: Dbsk Changmin/Yunho
He glances at you worriedly from the corner of his eye as everyone enters the apartment, Yoochun going straight to his bedroom while you stare listlessly in the hallway. You feel his warm hand on your shoulder and you look up.
“Changmin-ah, what’s wrong?” He asks warm brown eyes filled with worry.
“It’s nothing. I’m just tired.” You try to smile but it comes out more as a grimace.
“If you say so, I’m just going to get changed.” He looks at you doubtfully but doesn’t try to weasel an answer out of you. Instead he heads towards the bedroom that you both share. This is what you love so much about him, he knows not to push you when you are upset, knows that you’ll come to him when you are good and ready.
He just knows you
But sometimes you wonder if you know him as well as he knows you. His past is something that has never come up before and he avoids talking about it, sidestepping any questions with a smile. But the way he had talked about his homelessness, like it was ok, like he was used to it, like it was no big deal had broke you heart. And worst of all he had that little smile on his face the whole time. He was so nonchalant about it that it makes you want to shake him, tell him that it was ok to lose control of his emotions once in a while. It was ok to stop being so strong all the time.
When you enter the room, you see him standing shirtless in front of the closet, jeans riding low on slim hips and hair in a ponytail. You feel desire coil low in your abdomen but you ignore it, you have something else on your mind. Silently you walk to stand behind Yunho who is still unaware of your presence. You wrap your arms around his waist from behind pulling him close to your chest. He lets out a sound of surprise but you don’t pay any heed to it, instead you nuzzle against his neck.
It’s when you are holding him like this that the height difference between the two of you is apparent. You are just a little taller, shoulder’s just a little broader than his and you love it. It makes you feel as though you can protect him, ward him against all the hurt that the world has caused him and can still cause him. Because as long as he stays in your embrace, there is nothing that can harm him, you’ll make sure of that.
“Changmin-ah….” He says turning in your embrace, callous hands gently taking a hold of your face.
“Hey….anything you wanna tell me?” He whispers sweetly like it’s a secret.
“I love you, I love you so much…” You whisper with desperation that you have never felt before. You gaze at him, notice how his eyes are wide and shiny as your quiet confession hangs in the air.
“Changmin-ah…” he whispers, voice trembling a little. You have never said those words to him before even though you are both in a relationship, never had the courage, your pride as always getting in the way. You have never been good at voicing out your feelings towards someone but god, Yunho makes you want to try.
There are so many things you want to say to him, so many things you want him to understand. You want to tell him that….
“You’ll never be without a home ever again…
You’ll never be alone or hurt ever again….
You’ll never have to feel like you have been abandoned ever again…..
…Because
…..Because I’ll be here
………….I’ll be here
………..I’ll be here as long as you want me
…………I’ll be here forever as long as you let me”
But nothing comes out like always, it’s like the words are stuck in your throat. So you try to tell him through your actions.
You push him against the wall, towering over his still form. He looks at you from under dark lashes; his cheeks flushed a pale pink, pouty lips parted slightly and you fucking lose it, smashing your lips against his. You nibble slightly on his bottom lip, asking for permission to enter. The slight opening of his lips has you pushing your tongue in his mouth, coaxing a sweet low moan from the back of his throat.
You kiss him desperately as if you are never going to see him again, trying to pour all you feeling into it, hoping he understands what you are trying say through your touches instead of your words. His hands tangle in your hair gripping the strands tightly, making you melt in the kiss. Slowly the desperation disappears and the kiss becomes slow and sensual. Every inch of your body is pressed tightly against Yunho, no space left between the two of you. You break apart the kiss, leaning your forehead gently against his. Nothing but the sound of heavy breathing fills the air, both of you trying to catch your breath.
“I love you…” He whispers adoringly, kissing your forehead. Softly and sweetly he kisses your eyes, your cheeks, your nose and finally you lips, each press of his lips on your skin followed by a declaration of ‘I love you’. Your heart catches in your throat when he gives you the most gorgeous smile that you have ever seen and you know that he understands what you have been trying to say all along. It’s in the twinkle of his eyes, the flush on his cheeks, and the curve of his delectable lips.
He understands.
You can’t help but smile back.
He understands….
Because he is Yunho and he knows you like the back of his hand.
~The End~