Life is a bastard...that bastard that laughs at you when you trip on the sidewalk....
Soooooo I was thinking today, never a good sign, about being grown up and coming a long way from "High School" me into "hard working, home owning, grocery shopping, vacation taking, laundry doing, balancing checkbook, ahhh this is freedom" me... and I was proud ::beaming smile:: then it hit me, i'm not even half way to...anything... It's still just the start.
4 jobs, 9 moves and 5years later i'm really not far from High School. So I started looking forward, in my mind moving thru time forward, to all the things I want to do and be and accomplish and what those will take. I realized at some point i'm going to have to decide if my Big-girl job is going to become my Big-girl career. That choice comes with: potential for growth within this company, does that mean moving up the corp ladder? do I want to be a ladder climber? what's my financial outlook if I opt to not be a climber and stay in the same level position and take my annual raises? would that be enough? enough for what? kids... trips.. houses.. cars... school... what are my goals? so if I stay at this job, what skills will I be learning that could carry over into other jobs? would I be good at anything else? my last attempt failed miserably, but it was only half-hearted. when do I go back to college? what do I study? something I want like english or liberal arts? or something to benefit my "career" business management, economics, trade... do I get my Customs Brokerage License? it's alot of work for something that will be useless if this isn't my career.
Then all this thought about responsibility and setting up for the long haul and blah blah blah makes me think of all the things I want to do like travel and write and skydive and make a difference and be more active in my community and buy a motorcycle and disappear for months...... ::sigh:: You can't have both... you can't have the free spirit devil be damned life and the staunch, role modeled, career forward, soccermom life. They are Yin & Yang minus the perfect harmony....
so what's more important to me, what I can do & see or what I can leave behind? the lives that can touch mine, or the lives I can touch? I guess this is going to have to wait for another day... have a wonderful weekend.
4 jobs, 9 moves and 5years later i'm really not far from High School. So I started looking forward, in my mind moving thru time forward, to all the things I want to do and be and accomplish and what those will take. I realized at some point i'm going to have to decide if my Big-girl job is going to become my Big-girl career. That choice comes with: potential for growth within this company, does that mean moving up the corp ladder? do I want to be a ladder climber? what's my financial outlook if I opt to not be a climber and stay in the same level position and take my annual raises? would that be enough? enough for what? kids... trips.. houses.. cars... school... what are my goals? so if I stay at this job, what skills will I be learning that could carry over into other jobs? would I be good at anything else? my last attempt failed miserably, but it was only half-hearted. when do I go back to college? what do I study? something I want like english or liberal arts? or something to benefit my "career" business management, economics, trade... do I get my Customs Brokerage License? it's alot of work for something that will be useless if this isn't my career.
Then all this thought about responsibility and setting up for the long haul and blah blah blah makes me think of all the things I want to do like travel and write and skydive and make a difference and be more active in my community and buy a motorcycle and disappear for months...... ::sigh:: You can't have both... you can't have the free spirit devil be damned life and the staunch, role modeled, career forward, soccermom life. They are Yin & Yang minus the perfect harmony....
so what's more important to me, what I can do & see or what I can leave behind? the lives that can touch mine, or the lives I can touch? I guess this is going to have to wait for another day... have a wonderful weekend.