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im nowhere near there. im havent left, i dont think i ever will. the room is still the same exact it was left. the roof is holding what i thought would matter down the year. the water is stained and dirty from the roses that died in it. there are still three yellow furs in the same exact cordinates they were left. the sheets are still ruffled to the shape of our bodies and the room still has the memories of you and me, everytihng, true and through. now im not looking for anything, ive lost it all. im standing on nothing, with nothing to show. im done in this rat race of fools gold that gets us nowhere. i just want to know what has happened. im gone right now, like i said. i dont need to think of it, or anything; but why do i.
i started this with the motivation to get out all i need to get out. ill never get it all out.
i saw an amazing view tonight, one that really did make me stop and think.
why am i doing this to myself? why now, why here. im miserable.
im never going to be the same.
no love or blankets are keeping me warm.
i started this with the motivation to get out all i need to get out. ill never get it all out.
i saw an amazing view tonight, one that really did make me stop and think.
why am i doing this to myself? why now, why here. im miserable.
im never going to be the same.
no love or blankets are keeping me warm.