I almost forgot about this....
Well it HAS been a while...whats happened?
Well, i've lost and gained a few friends,my job is still shite , my man is still fantastic and we now have the flat to ourselves :) and the fact my mother keeps making wedding references may one day take hold on him.
On a sadder note,my Nan has been diagnosed with terminal cancer, and hasn't got long left , so she's in a secure ward for alzheimer's patients, thankfully she has a great team of nurses and has the best care available to her.I'm dealing with it ok, but the fact that i'm now at the age where my relatives are getting ill and dying on me makes me really scared that i've wasted my life, ten years have raced passed and what do i have to show for it ? Crappy jobs, useless boyfriends? I just need to do something, anything...
I'm also toying with the idea of having an intervention with my brother, he's a 20yr old coke fiend who has stolen, borrowed and now had himself banned from most of the clubs in edinburgh due to his habbit, we've all dabbled, but thankfully we are all smarter.... All i can think of is what will happen when my stepfather finds out what a fuck up he is, as if he didn't have enough of an idea, and that everyone knew about it aside from him...I mean fuck, i got kicked out for having some pot, i think he'd crucify the boy if he found out what he's been up to,if he wasn't HIS son....yup, the bastard child is the one that always wrongs, yet the spoon fed one gets away with it all. Life is far from fair.
I just needed to write down whats been bugging me, and since i haven't posted in a year or so, im overdue!
Well, i've lost and gained a few friends,my job is still shite , my man is still fantastic and we now have the flat to ourselves :) and the fact my mother keeps making wedding references may one day take hold on him.
On a sadder note,my Nan has been diagnosed with terminal cancer, and hasn't got long left , so she's in a secure ward for alzheimer's patients, thankfully she has a great team of nurses and has the best care available to her.I'm dealing with it ok, but the fact that i'm now at the age where my relatives are getting ill and dying on me makes me really scared that i've wasted my life, ten years have raced passed and what do i have to show for it ? Crappy jobs, useless boyfriends? I just need to do something, anything...
I'm also toying with the idea of having an intervention with my brother, he's a 20yr old coke fiend who has stolen, borrowed and now had himself banned from most of the clubs in edinburgh due to his habbit, we've all dabbled, but thankfully we are all smarter.... All i can think of is what will happen when my stepfather finds out what a fuck up he is, as if he didn't have enough of an idea, and that everyone knew about it aside from him...I mean fuck, i got kicked out for having some pot, i think he'd crucify the boy if he found out what he's been up to,if he wasn't HIS son....yup, the bastard child is the one that always wrongs, yet the spoon fed one gets away with it all. Life is far from fair.
I just needed to write down whats been bugging me, and since i haven't posted in a year or so, im overdue!