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We talked for about an hour around midnight on Friday....tears...trying to understand, silence.....
I told him I was planning on coming to see him and he said "I don't know how I would have taken that, it was just so hard last time"
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He said that he doesn't think I fully understand how hard it is for him to tell me he's taking this time. I guess I don't, cause my thinking is this....if it is this hard for us to be apart then why are we?! If we both know it's possible to make it work, then why don't we?!
I don't get it.
But at the end of the conversation I asked him if it was o.k for me to come see him and he said "if you want to...." becaue it would be too easy for him to just say yes. ;-)
I was leaving Saturday morning and he called me and explained that they just had a meeting for the day and he didn't realize how hectic his day was gonna be. He said that I would be sitting all day in the bleachers, by myself and really cold because he would be so busy we wouldn't have any time to talk or even see eachother and he didn't want me to drive all the way there just for that. I asked him if that was the only reason and he said it was.....so thats really all I can go on.
We haven't talked since then.....
Yesterday at church his mom gave me a huge hug and we both cried. She said she told him he better smarten up and realize what he has. :-) She said she loved me and she has faith this will all work out. I spent the day with his family over at Granny and Grandaddys....which is an every Sunday thing....before I left Granny gave me a big hug and told me, this is only a season and before I know it he'll come home to me....more tears...jeez :-)
I just have to believe that he'll stop being stubborn and put his pride to the side and change his mind. I know I would probably do the same thing he is doing at this point...saying no, just to say no....I deserve it to a point...I guess.
I told him I was planning on coming to see him and he said "I don't know how I would have taken that, it was just so hard last time"
??????????????????????????????
He said that he doesn't think I fully understand how hard it is for him to tell me he's taking this time. I guess I don't, cause my thinking is this....if it is this hard for us to be apart then why are we?! If we both know it's possible to make it work, then why don't we?!
I don't get it.
But at the end of the conversation I asked him if it was o.k for me to come see him and he said "if you want to...." becaue it would be too easy for him to just say yes. ;-)
I was leaving Saturday morning and he called me and explained that they just had a meeting for the day and he didn't realize how hectic his day was gonna be. He said that I would be sitting all day in the bleachers, by myself and really cold because he would be so busy we wouldn't have any time to talk or even see eachother and he didn't want me to drive all the way there just for that. I asked him if that was the only reason and he said it was.....so thats really all I can go on.
We haven't talked since then.....
Yesterday at church his mom gave me a huge hug and we both cried. She said she told him he better smarten up and realize what he has. :-) She said she loved me and she has faith this will all work out. I spent the day with his family over at Granny and Grandaddys....which is an every Sunday thing....before I left Granny gave me a big hug and told me, this is only a season and before I know it he'll come home to me....more tears...jeez :-)
I just have to believe that he'll stop being stubborn and put his pride to the side and change his mind. I know I would probably do the same thing he is doing at this point...saying no, just to say no....I deserve it to a point...I guess.