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i wonder waht i shall do this weekend seeing it's memorial day weekend and i have nothing to do. huh go figure that one. i'm a loser. thats alrite i'll work but thats about it. i've been pretty upset lately and i dont really feel liek talking about it but nobody feels like listening so it's all good. im so irritable and i just feel like freaking out and cry lol. this is not really like me go figure. i only write in here when im pissy and complaining you all prolly thing ima idiot. i guess my two friends had sex and now they're freaking out but i wont name names cuz its just bad jew jew but anywho so they talked to me and i settled them down. it kinda sucks i feel like everyone dumps on me but i got nobody to dump on but then again i prolly do but i just refuse to do so. fucking pride. always gets in the way. sometimes i hate the way i am and i just wanna hit myself in teh head numerous time for being sucha fuck head ya know....hmmm im feelin mighty lonely cuz everybody got somebody to love but me. just lonely old heidi yep yep i mean michelles got tanner...marie's got wes, jenna (not friend but thats okay ) has cody ummm leo's gotta girl joe's gotta girl...then theres just me kickin it with myself i wonder why this is. why dont i gotta guy? oh yeah im fat lol that settles that. today fuck head jesse pissed me off when he was hatin on our report lil did he know we did bette riwth a 92 vs. his 91 i was like YEAH FUCK YOU and i didn't even know what i was doing so piss fucking off....oh i just wanna hit him with my vehicle it's be worth it. i saw lil hayla niece graduate and i started to tear up. damn already graduating from kinderguarden. i remember the first time i held her and how she used to nap on our couch and then i used to hold her and let her touch the sheep oh i better quit im startin to get teary eyed again. it's gonna be really hard for me to move away from her especially for some reason. it's gonna be really hard when i graduate i know im gonna be walkin across the stage and crying i can see it now...note to self no makeup. although it's in a year oh that year is comin fast. it doesn't even feel like theres only like 4 days of school left cuz it's so rainy and yucky. ew not fun. i want sun so i can make money with my mom oh well that and get unfat. oh well
¤i'm just a dreamer i dream my life away. i'm just a dreamer who dreams of better days...¤