Antidepressants
Have been very much struggling with my emotions lately. Have definitely been in a full fledged depression for the past couple of months since my break up, because i have a lot of emotional - hurt - etc im dealing with that is flooding back to me from the past year and a half of the relationship, and how now he goes around gossiping about me/makes me a very insecure young girl.
anyways--after breaking down, several times lately, i finally came to the realization that its ok to take an antidepressant.
ive always been so 'against' them...but have suffered from on / off depression my entire life.
im tired of being stubborn. im giving in now, because i have to keep myself from crying while im watching AVATAR while working out at gold's gym. yeah.
and its effecting my relationships with friends/family...i havent been hanging out with either much.
and ive been swirling in anxiety and insecurities and sadness over picking my next semester of courses..and starting a new job(i actually really enjoy my new job. its the perfect place for me. an Independent Movie Theater.)
so i'm going to go with an antidepressant, because i deserve to feel like myself.
and im so excited...im finally giving into my needs, and not brushing them off/making myself worse by pretending i dont feel horribly depressed every day.
so--found this quote. made me feel really really happy.:)
"For medicines come from the hand of God and a wise man would not refuse them" (Ecclesiasticus 38:4**).
Excerpts from : http://www.beliefnet.com/Health/2000/03/When-Anti-Depressants-Spell-Relief.aspx
--counselors interviewed by Christian Century felt this medication should only be used for "severe" depression.
--"There's use and abuse. But I do feel certain that for people with a chemical imbalance that Prozac can help balance out, it's a godsend. It can even help them see the spiritual path more clearly."
--"You have to heal on all levels--you don't do medicine instead of other things but in addition to healthy practices like yoga and meditation
."
--But in cases of "a deep depression brought on by some serious trauma, Prozac could help."
--I don't consider using such medicine a sign of weakness or spiritual failure, but a willingness to admit to a problem and take legitimate means to solve it. Putting down people who use such medications shows a spiritual arrogance and self-righteousness. The best corrective to such negative attitudes is from James Baldwin's book of essays "Notes of Native Son," when he quotes a Harlem preacher who says you can't judge a person "if thou knowest not his wrassling." To that, I add a hearty AMEN!
