We always come back to the same argument

[sassydame]

I am cautionary. I think. I dont just make fool harded decisions at the spare of the moment without thinking them through. Most of the time. But you know, thats not really getting me anywhere. And really where I am isnt the greatest place at the moment. Im tired, all the time. Im lonely. I cant even explain the amount of effort it takes to get out fof bed in the morning. None of these things should be happening. I am 23 years old and I feel like I am 35 and just at the end of my rope. Which makes me wonder if maybe I have what my mother has. maybe if I am diagnosed with the same thing. Its a sad thing to think about. And it scares me to literally no end.

I mean if I do it just means that i will have to take medication and whats a little medication every day of your life to feel happy and emotionally adjusted right?